I didn't realize that I would miss the absence of someone loving me quite so much. yes, i know people love me, but you know what i mean. i've basically given up on the prospect of such a thing ever happening again ( Read more... )

it's 5:20 in the morning. why am i still awake? i should be sleeping, like a normal person, but normal seems too much to ask these days. i seem more prone to wasting my time and my life. i now lack the ability(or the desire, but what difference does it really make?) to do aything that could be considered useful ( Read more... )

well well well. its been a while. recent news is as follows ( Read more... )

well. last night i got very angry, and i punched my house. my hand is all sorts of "not right" now. after that happened, i went to get cigarettes. i lost my cell phone. my dad called me this morning to tell me that there is an indian man answering my phone. I deduce that i must have left it at the deli i got the cigarettes at. i go up there, i get ( Read more... )

daryl if you see this tonite im fine, yes i iced my hand, n i dont know where my phone is it may be in the car, if you could look id apprediate it i love you

i need something. I need some form of structure, because I'm wasting my life, my time, myself and everything I once had the potential to be ( Read more... )

well i've done it. i fucking broke my fuckiong ankle. im amazing.

so last was interesting and fun... this morning is not so much fun. im the only person awake as usual. pete from fall out boy is on tv, and its not as fun to talk about how hot he is to MYSELF. Daryl, you suck for not coming home last night. and thats that. ps its fucking HOT.

bless me dark father, i have sinned
i've done it before and i'll do it again
cause it keeps me warm and it makes you smile
been beneath me all the while
hell yes.

so im officially homeless.

there's bigger things that we can find than this world
cause this is the best time of our lives
shouldn't be thinking about this nowi'd forgotten how it felt to just relax and have fun up until quite recently. i'd forgotten how it felt to stay up all night with someone because you can't run out of things to say to them. I could barely remember ( Read more... )