no matter how far you travel the world....the problems and issues you left on the other side of the world.....will catch up to you eventually. family issues...oh how I wish you could never exist anymore.

it's tears at me and eats my flesh like a caterpillar on a life....slowly...so slowly.

save me

I just got the strange urge wanting to eat some salty french fries with lots of ketchup......

yeah....that sounds good right now. 178 days ohhhh how you can't come sooner.

my heart hurts. it's hard to keep your head up today. lots of thoughts and sudden emotions came as a tital wave washing out any stable and conscious feelings/thoughts I had. hard life changing decisions are laid out in front of me.....and knowing I have to choose is tough. what to do ( Read more... )

i gotta confession to make.

I'm in love

and she's German

this is such an awesome feeling

feel free to be jealous.

Coming back acrossed this good ol' livejournal I had been reading through alot of it (well.....as fast as this internet could go....) I realized this journal contains alot of memories and the moldings of who I am today. I read and realize that I wasn't a very happy person, but kept pressing on (even though I've buried alot of the hurt) with a ( Read more... )

bad day today

feel content with lifeand take everything the best way you can. You don't know when life will be taken from you. every decision counts....trust me.

i've decided I want to be here in afghanistan.

media is fucking lame and makes everything look bad.

i decided this out of two days again my eyes saw something I thought about deeply. taliban are a bunch of sick twisted fucks. we need to be here.

the end.

got news from the doc today about my ear. apparently I might be deaf in it.

im so bummed out right now.

the end.

im lonely. being in germany is cool, but there's noone i can totally relate to. im not the typical army guy that only likes going to clubs. clubs can suck it.

sorry misha i realized the time difference and you are in school. ill call you asap though. good caht last night...cept i ran home....

I've got a date today and I'm excited! Her name is Victoria which is a pretty name. She is 27 and is my old manager at Albertsons. crazy isn't it? she is way cool and my brother likes her. This is the first girl my brother likes. I'm keeping the date short and simple, but fun. Why should I go out of my way to impress someone when I can show ( Read more... )