feeling more alone than i've ever been

[aventurine]

i've decided to finally update again. the phone company has my phone all fucked up at home for no particular reason, so i can't get online from home at all for now. all i get is static, and if you try to call in you get a recording that says "this line is being checked for trouble." of course, the phone company knows nothing about it or how to

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[avatar_x]

Could you do me a favor and ask KT to call me the next time you see him? I'm never able to get a hold of him.

[aventurine]

several people have told me that they're unable to get him and wondering what's going on. so i asked him, and he informs that he is quite busy working on a book that should be done within a couple months, and that he has a new job. if i see him out again, i'll tell him to contact you!

[avatar_x]

Thanks, I appreciate that.

[dilatedeyes]

I'm sorry your problems are growing. Are they growing at a normal rate, or too fast? if you ever want someone to go with you, i can try(if i'm not in classes, i will, or if it's after my classes are done for the day) or send my mom down. it's nice to have moral support sometimes.

spy's drink tickets are for domestic/well drinks only.

I heard on the radio that there's some singles thing going on new year's eve at the holiday inn ballroom in strongsville. that's really the only other thing i've even heard of, no one i know is doing anything at all for new year's.

[aventurine]

i think we should probably stick with what we have for spy, then. i don't want to pay $6/drink for drink tickets that are only good for well drinks, which can't possible cost more than $3 or $4 each if ordered separately. so it seems that we should probably just do the $80 option and get the big table with the champagne. is that okay for you, or too much money?

the holiday inn thing has a risk of being pathetic...

[dilatedeyes]

yeah, a seriously large risk. =)

I can't do the speed dating thing next week, because i'm taking my mom and grandma to see bette midler.

i'll be home wednesday afternoon, but i still don't have an outfit. do you have anything planned? the $80 is fine. i tried to go to the beachwood mall today, but it was so packed. would you like to try to meet up tomorrow to find something?

[aventurine]

sure, meeting up tomorrow would be fine. i get off work at 5pm, did you want to do it right then? i could be there like around 5:30pm or so.

i don't really know what i'm going to wear, i don't exactly have the money to buy anything new. :( i think i am going to wear a long black slightly flared skirt, a black low-cut wrap shirt (you've seen that shirt before), with fishnets and mary janes. i think that's the best i can do with what i have. also, i'm going to style my hair old-fashioned-like.

[jjjiii]

Not that I know a whole lot about dishing out compassion to medical patients, but if you wanna talk you know how to find me.

Also, if you need to rent a Hummer to make it over the rail of the Valley View Bridge, that's about the first legitimate use of a SUV I've thought of. But please drop of kingtycoon before you do that.

[aventurine]

drop him off? it was his idea, i can't leave him out of it.

[surrealtime]

Ah, the zen cubicle. I tried that at my office. I went through three bonsai trees and finally gave it up. I got a nice oriental looking container now with three stalks of lucky bamboo. And my feng shui candles are all properly aligned.

[aventurine]

i have one small little bonsai tree that i got from home depot, so it has a year guarantee. it's supposed to be really hard to grow, but it's doing quite well. i just keep the moss around is moist and water it from the bottom daily.

i have two of those lucky bamboo plants, but they're NOT doing well and they're supposed to be so easy to grow! i think i'm over watering them, the leaves are turning brown.

i don't have any feng shui stuff, but i do have the little zen garden, two siamese fighting fish in bowls, and a little desktop water fountain. :)

[sin_no_more]

Sorry to hear of the health problems. I have had a few persistant ones return myself, keeping me from working the past few days. I have an appointment tomorrow and will get wired to see if things are serious. Will probably see needles too. I really dislike having blood drawn.

Really wish I could hang out sometime for a few brews or whatever. But I pretty much have been banned for life for any alcohol consuming events. It is kind of the at the root of my health problems.

Hope your New Year's celebration goes well though and best wishes for the coming year.

[aventurine]

i read your post, it all sounds very rough. i hope there's nothing serious going on and it all works out.

having blood drawn is no big deal. needles are fancy things!

happy new year to you also.