So many changes in a comparatively short period of time.

The job is good, everything is good, but the past couple days have felt very empty.  I have been trying my hardest to calm down, and not thrash about as I usually do when I feel anywhere near close to this, but it is to little avail.

Since I have moved home, I have learned how to snowboard, ( Read more... )

Upon making my usual rounds of blogs and news websites on the interwebs today, I came across a NYTimes op-ed piece recalling a particular Christmas Eve of lost innocence, of revealed insight to the people around the author.  I skimmed over the comments, and at the bottom of them, one person wrote of the way the holiday illuminates life around you- ( Read more... )

 Today, upon weighing myself post-run, I found that I was at a weight I've been at only a few times in the past couple years, and have not been under since that one summer.  I promptly ate a large piece of red velvet cake, curled up in my pajamas, and enjoyed the dual sensations of being still and eating lots of sugar at once on a raw November day.

 Watching Annie Hall and eating Brie for dinner ( Read more... )

I do NOT do well on holidays.

That is all. 

 This evening was-

New necklaces, swishy long hair.

Cashmere and chardonnay, talking with an old friend.

And right now, Winterpills, and quiet.

Sometimes, when I am listening to music, I can hardly believe that my memories belong to me. 

 Just a very bad day.

I keep trying to bring myself up with things, but somehow keep getting pulled down.

I'm wiping my nose on my cardigan and it's gross but you know what?  I just don't care.

Green light go!

But I’m not tired.  Tomorrow is what they call rollout- all of us newbies are called for 5am to unload the truck and organized the new shipment.  I am surprisingly ok with this.  For now, anyway.

I can’t help but feel awesome about this new job, even though there is really nothing going for it on the career scope.  It pays ( Read more... )

Moody today, for a few reasons.  Woke up after dreaming about India, once again, and drove to Westchester, narrowly missing a horrific accident jam up.  Had the most fun in the car with my clothes on, though- as the exit since I was getting on at was right ahead of the block up, I didn’t have to merge or anything.  There were no cars behind me and ( Read more... )

 Beautiful presents from India today, and long conversations with good people ( Read more... )