Just need to get some stuff out a little I guess.  I'm feeling pretty anxious at the moment.  This weekend is Spring weekend, which really should be a good time, but for some reason I'm a little hesitant about the whole thing.  I have felt really out of things with my friends here.  It might be cuz they are all old enough to leave and go out now, ( Read more... )

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me lately.  I feel completly helpless, with a job with internships with life.  I don't feel like I can handle things anymore.  I'm mad i've turned into a needy clingy unbearable girl.  I never wanted to be like those girls, the ones who need to be around their boyfriends all the time, they are so annoying ( Read more... )

I really am hating philosophy, and I don't wanna finish this paper, so as always I turn to livejournal lol.  I've been really struggling with being back here.  I think for some reason since I was away from everything for so long that now that im yet again away even though its not an ocean away its just really hard.  Tim came last weekend and it was ( Read more... )

It's sooo strange to be coming home in a week.  I'm way way beyond excited but I didn't think I would have any reservations about it.  Obviously I want to see tim and friends and family so badly, but it's still the weirdest feeling ever.  To have been completly on your own, an ocean away for 4 whole months, to see so many amazing things that you ( Read more... )

Blah sometimes people make me feel like crap and really hurt my feelings and I just sit there and laugh it off or w/e.  I mean I know that my relationship with this person is one of joking because we are not close, so it's alright but seriously sometimes people should stop and think that they might be crossing a line.  Im sorry if I'm not what you ( Read more... )

Sigh so while I'm enjoying being here and seeing so many amazing things parts of me just want to be home.  I really miss all of you so badly.  I am becoming so unbelievably starved for close friends.  I have met some great people here but it's just not the same at all.  I miss people who I can completly open up to, lol not just have drunken talks ( Read more... )

Wow,  so it's been a while lol do people still read this????  It's amazing what having to write a horrible 3000 word essay will drive you to do for procrastination.  Though I have decided that I miss being able to vent in here and being able to update people on my life, especially when I am so far away.  Not for that much longer though lol I'll be ( Read more... )

blah I feel so up and down and just i dunno just wicked overwhelmed....I hate the way I am, I'm stubborn and loath change, and so much is changing.  Why do some things seem to be so much harder for me? grrrrrrrrrr How do people not overthink absolutly everything like I do? lol I really would like to know so that I can stop because it is driving me ( Read more... )

Hmm I have no clue what I wanna say but no one updates any more so i figured i would.  Summer has been going well, it seems to be flying by way too quickly.  I feel like yesterday I was sitting at my desk at school writing some stupid paper.  Things are changing so rapidly, Kristen is graduating on Sunday.  Its so weird to think about the fact that ( Read more... )

So I have not updated in absolutly forever.  This will be completly short mainly because it can not be contained any more, and surprisingly it vears away from my normally depressing format.  I feel 100 percent head over heals and I just had to say it somewhere purley to get it out.  I feel so incredably lucky I can't even put it into some type of ( Read more... )