i am finally off groundation since like 30 days ago. it totally sucked major. my weekend has pretty much sucked so far. if anyone has any suggestions for tonights fun please post em. i need all the help i can get. plus since jakes party is "seniors only" i cant fuckin go.. how gay is that? ugh..
LIFE SUCKS.

for the past two weeks i have been institutionalized in another mental hospital. that makes two in the past month. it sucked major. and whoever posted that comment on my last entry entitled please i would like to know who you are because i dont think anyone should leave a comment like that and not be brave enough to put who they are. that is lame ( Read more... )

have you ever felt that you were in love? well i am having some crazy feelings about this boy. i will NOT reveal his name but i will tell you that everytime i see him i wanna kiss him. haha. lol. its horrible. then i have a friend who likes this other boy and she says she is the same way about him. what to do what to do? i think i have a boy ( Read more... )

ok so i was forced to go into a rehabilitation center called gulf oaks nut house for 10 days to recover from my "illnesses" and during my stay there i had a diagnosis made up for me. the doctors said i have ( Read more... )

a list of things to do before i die. some are long term things. therefore i am not planning on dyin soon. these are things i havent already done off of my previous list made in my other journal ( Read more... )

top 25 not so favorites ( Read more... )

my top 50 favorite whatevers ( Read more... )

visitation soon. wish for friends. ms. o coming. ms. amy. love them both. look up to them. truth them. shouldnt feel this way. world is crazy. want hugs. feel loved. needed. cared for. wanted. loved. want to see tori. cain. bacon. megan. paige. nick. kyle. tyler. brian. bobbie. kelsey. jolie. everyone. ms. o didnt come. flat tire. couldnt make it. ( Read more... )

confused. alone. hungry. not eating. dont want help. dont need help. need to see my friends. i <3 them. miss them. left alone. tabatha gone. aaron gone. nick gone. sadness. friends no more. wish to cry. no tears. need inspiration. want to draw. keeps me calm. best friend i could never have. nick. no more depression. mixed emotions. no longer sad. ( Read more... )