Ended up in th emergency room again so today I went to a chiropractor. I have pinched nerve in my spine. It's good to have an answer. I go back Tuesday for the results of my scan and to begin therapy. My marriage is falling apart. That's about all for now.

The meds aren't giving me enough pain relief. I don't have insurance or money to keep going back to the doctor. I need another ct scan possibly x Rays. It's getting bad. I cried earlier because I tried so hard to pick Leo up and I couldn't do it. I'm failing as a mom and a wife because I can't move my back. It's frustrating. It's also scary ( Read more... )

Had to delete some stuff. I'm working through a lot of anger. That's not how I really want to be remembered. I was given some not so great news from the doctor yesterday. I thought I was having kidney problems again. I thought I'd take some antibiotics and regain mobility in my back and legs again. Turns out my kidneys are fine, good news. I just ( Read more... )

I am only days away from having this baby but I just want to cry. This is the most consistently miserable I've ever been in my entire life. I am fully confident that women who elect to have more than one baby are pathological narcissists and/or some kind of sick, stupid masochists. I will reinstate that comment with renewed emphasis once I have

Maybe it's hormones or my over protective motherly instincts kicking in, but I really don't trust anybody aside from my family and the 2 or 3 friends that I lump into my family category anyways. Ever since I got preggo, I've noticed that people are bitter, jealous and spiteful and will sometimes go as far as to come between you and your happiness ( Read more... )

I can't believe lj is still in existence! is anyone out there? i miss this thing.

say something

going to the beach on monday. i will bombard your friends page with pictures galore when i come back. brace yourself.

im going away.
i'll come back when i figure shit out

This is me for forever ( Read more... )