i have a problem avoiding conversations and one on one situations. my anxiety or whatever the fuck you want to call it, is going to be the death of me. its literally consuming everything that i know. memory is shot. i think thats a major cause to this. and on top of that, i miss out on so many beautiful things because my hearing is also shot. it ( Read more... )

i got a third fucking job. cloud nine, doing barback and even a little bartending with the fabulous nick square. i started last night. i had to work at all three jobs which equaled to 21 hours. jakprints-8 hours. oven fresh-5 hours. cloud nine-8 hours. what the fuck was i thinking? anyways, it was so worth it. i made good money and i feel great. ( Read more... )

so i have a second job doing pizza delivery at georgio's oven fresh in strongsville. i work there 4 days a week that add up to 13 hours each day on top of jakprints. thats just over 60 hours a week. i havent been this happy with myself in years. its about damn time. i am no longer depending on anyone to make me happy. i no longer strive for ( Read more... )

yea, i have problems. if you were my bestfriend, you would be here to help me and not be so goddamned selfish. i get like this when i truly care for someone. and this is what i get?

what the fuck was i thinking?

oh, and i miss these times so fucking much. where have they gone?
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i wish money didnt buy happiness. cause it really does and i have none. everything else is fairweather. even friends.

nick flair(square) is my favorite person as of now.

that is all.

someone went in my car last night and stole all my cds AND my cd player. i just lost about 3 grand worth of music, and music is my life. its all that i have for me when no one is around ( Read more... )

i think this cigarette ban is fucking bullshit. yes, smoking is unhealthy but so are nuclear plants and factories ;etc. anyways, there are already designated smoking areas pretty much every where you go. once again, another reason why i despise the american government. congratulations to all you nonsmokers. now what am i gonna do after a hard days

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