When I asked Carly if she wanted to hang out here? I don't think I actually thought she'd want to show. I'm sure Daphne's been bitching in her ear every fucking chance she gets about how I'm just bad people.
And while I like that, it's still bullshit to deal with. You don't wish shit like talking to living, breathing, phenomenal fuck ups like Daphne on anyone. You just don't. I wouldn't even wish it on my Dad, and he's a complete dick.
So if Carly had all of the sudden decided that she didn't want to be around me just to get Daphne to shut the fuck up, I would have got it. It would have disappointing, and maybe a little hard to believe considering she's head over heels for Sam Howell of all people, but what the hell ever. Her life.
Still, she's here. Which... I think is a little weird. I don't usually have people here.
What the fuck was I thinking?
"You know.""Yeah?" I opened the window and grabbed a pack of cigarettes off the desk, shaking one out and lighting it. I'll see if Emanuelle's got any of that deodorizing shit if she's
( ... )
"First off? This place'd be a shithole without Emanuelle. So don't attribute that to either of us. That prick's a lazy bastard, and if I started being the one to clean, it never would have stopped."
"Am I supposed to be surprised? It takes a four person staff to keep my house in living order."
Not that I'd mind keeping my room up by myself. I usually do a pretty good job with it, but my parents have expectations that I could care less about meeting when I'm trying to make my bed before Sam comes over. Its just easier to let them have their way. If I fought them on everything, they might start to pay more attention to me, and I don't want that happening.
I'm better off without them. I'm happy now. If they ruin it, I won't be. So really, I don't mind this.
"Second off...I did once. When I was a kid, I found paint in the garage, and while Dad was at work, I just went nuts on my room."I laughed, going to a mental image of little Gina destroying her bedroom and annoying her father. I haven't seen him yet, but he's definitely not
( ... )
I grinned. "Yeah. And every other little kid who's stuck in a fucked up family's dream, right?" I should do that again. Just paint the room, and see what he does. I'm not six anymore, and it wouldn't be all about wrecking the place.
It'd be something to break up the fucking boredom that radiates from here. But since he doesn't come in my room much, I don't know how it'd work out.
Maybe I can get Emanuelle to fake freaking out and bring him up here while I'm out. Then hide a camera or something so I can get his reaction.
Fucking perfect.
"No. Not intentionally anyway."
... Why the hell not?
"I've broken windows, caused ceiling cave ins, and busted chairs, but it was never to get back at either of them."
"Still sounds like you had your own fun." She was subconsciously destructive. That's just as good. Anything that makes a dent is okay in my book.
"My parents and I have an unspoken understanding. As long as I don't rebel against them, they won't make my life a living hell."That's
( ... )
"Sounds like a nice enough deal. I couldn't go through with it, but to each her own, right?"
Right.
She thinks I'm crazy. And I'm okay with that. Its Gina. Gina thinking that I'm crazy is a lot less insulting than someone like Daphne thinking that I'm crazy. I can't hold it against her. No one would understand what my life is like unless they lived here. It might seem passive to Gina for me to tolerate their bullshit, but I'm just doing what I can to stay happy.
My father is willing to ruin anyone who doesn't agree with him. That's why he's a lawyer. He's ruthless, and isn't above acting that way to his own family. Grace learned that the hard way. I'm not willing to do the same.
If I want to go to college and have my own life someday, I can't be.
"Yeah."
"So. No more bullshit family talk."Well, I know where the conversation is going now. I don't mind, I'm just a little surprised. This is Gina's house I'm at, not Noelle's. I didn't think she'd want to hear about Sam
( ... )
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And while I like that, it's still bullshit to deal with. You don't wish shit like talking to living, breathing, phenomenal fuck ups like Daphne on anyone. You just don't. I wouldn't even wish it on my Dad, and he's a complete dick.
So if Carly had all of the sudden decided that she didn't want to be around me just to get Daphne to shut the fuck up, I would have got it. It would have disappointing, and maybe a little hard to believe considering she's head over heels for Sam Howell of all people, but what the hell ever. Her life.
Still, she's here. Which... I think is a little weird. I don't usually have people here.
What the fuck was I thinking?
"You know.""Yeah?" I opened the window and grabbed a pack of cigarettes off the desk, shaking one out and lighting it. I'll see if Emanuelle's got any of that deodorizing shit if she's ( ... )
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"Am I supposed to be surprised? It takes a four person staff to keep my house in living order."
Not that I'd mind keeping my room up by myself. I usually do a pretty good job with it, but my parents have expectations that I could care less about meeting when I'm trying to make my bed before Sam comes over. Its just easier to let them have their way. If I fought them on everything, they might start to pay more attention to me, and I don't want that happening.
I'm better off without them. I'm happy now. If they ruin it, I won't be. So really, I don't mind this.
"Second off...I did once. When I was a kid, I found paint in the garage, and while Dad was at work, I just went nuts on my room."I laughed, going to a mental image of little Gina destroying her bedroom and annoying her father. I haven't seen him yet, but he's definitely not ( ... )
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I grinned. "Yeah. And every other little kid who's stuck in a fucked up family's dream, right?" I should do that again. Just paint the room, and see what he does. I'm not six anymore, and it wouldn't be all about wrecking the place.
It'd be something to break up the fucking boredom that radiates from here. But since he doesn't come in my room much, I don't know how it'd work out.
Maybe I can get Emanuelle to fake freaking out and bring him up here while I'm out. Then hide a camera or something so I can get his reaction.
Fucking perfect.
"No. Not intentionally anyway."
... Why the hell not?
"I've broken windows, caused ceiling cave ins, and busted chairs, but it was never to get back at either of them."
"Still sounds like you had your own fun." She was subconsciously destructive. That's just as good. Anything that makes a dent is okay in my book.
"My parents and I have an unspoken understanding. As long as I don't rebel against them, they won't make my life a living hell."That's ( ... )
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Right.
She thinks I'm crazy. And I'm okay with that. Its Gina. Gina thinking that I'm crazy is a lot less insulting than someone like Daphne thinking that I'm crazy. I can't hold it against her. No one would understand what my life is like unless they lived here. It might seem passive to Gina for me to tolerate their bullshit, but I'm just doing what I can to stay happy.
My father is willing to ruin anyone who doesn't agree with him. That's why he's a lawyer. He's ruthless, and isn't above acting that way to his own family. Grace learned that the hard way. I'm not willing to do the same.
If I want to go to college and have my own life someday, I can't be.
"Yeah."
"So. No more bullshit family talk."Well, I know where the conversation is going now. I don't mind, I'm just a little surprised. This is Gina's house I'm at, not Noelle's. I didn't think she'd want to hear about Sam ( ... )
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