i saw him at the mall tonight holding some other girls hand. he saw me and was being all sweet and stuff. acting like it was no big deal. for all i know he coulda been cheating on me all along. he said he loved me. he said there was no other girl. i wanted to warn her right then and there. so i text him after i walked away: "so you have a new gf ( Read more... )

i'm sick of everything right now. i know God has a plan for everything. and that he has me in a place where he wnats me to be in right now. but it just doesnt seem fair. i'm so sick of crying every day over him. i'm sick of having the hope of something more. i'm sick of life. i lost the one person that loved me as much as i loved him ( Read more... )

i told myself i'd never be like this ( Read more... )

so now i'm going into like horrible depression. i cant believe taht i am honestly THIS depressed over a guy. well, i guess i can't really help it. i love him. i'd give ANYTHING to have him back. you name it. i miss him so much. it hurts like hell. i can't sleep, i'm always upset, i cry way too much, and i dont ever want to do anything but sit ( Read more... )

well...today was quite interesting. it was so much fun ( Read more... )

omg...i just can't believe it ( Read more... )

he made a breakthrough lol. he called me tonight to apologize for not talking to me very much. dillon said that he's never done that before, so that's good. i'm glad he did that- i made me feel like all this shit isn't my fault. thank God.

ok. i feel a bit better. but i still have a lot to think about...
goodnight everyone.
♥ sammi

Off-The-Wall Questions... oh boy ( Read more... )

ok. so after talking to dillon, i've decided that no matter what, i'm not going to get anything from scott. most likely, not even a friendship- according to some of his really good friends (and mine), he's done this to many other girls. he's broke up with them for dumb reasons, using dumb excuses, and isn't mature enough to mainain even a ( Read more... )

today has actually better than the last few.

lo and i went shopping- YAY!!!
got bbq chicken pizza at jets and saw brad (LOL), speedy, and katrina
and the best part...

i FINALLY got some communication with scott. about time. he's actually talking to me. all thanks to a pair of misfit shoes HAHA

anyways...i just thought i'd say that lol

♥ sammi