went to my yugioh tounament and took second, i hate the kid who took first. my day is kinda depressing. monika left this morning and i didnt go back to sleep for once. i kinda wish there was some kool aide here... lol. kool aide always makes me feel better and happy... ;)

if only it were half true...

I am in lansing still. it is awesome. i have missed this place. when you leave is when you relize where you belong ( Read more... )

These terror fits while I sleep are getting worse. I cant even begin to explain the fear that has started to manifest its self in my mind. It has gotten so bad that I woke up with a bloody nose. I guess my depression can be put to blame for most of it... I mean there are alot of things that make me happy (monika, the girls, yugioh, etc) but ( Read more... )

Posty Post Post.

I am lonely... I miss my kool aide... lol.

I did not go to sleep last night till like 4am, this insomnia is getting worse and so is the depression that hits when I wake up ( Read more... )

I am but a death cab on the streets of life
So wont you let me crash and burn our bridge
So I can drown in the flames of a road we never crossed.

im not sure why i came up with that... i am just in one of those moods i guess.

i just woke up... i slept for two hours. i doubt my ass can get up to go see my mom tommorow.

The new Taking Back Sunday rocks. Just thougt I would let all of you know that.

[.001. ] first name: steven
[ .002. ] middle name: david
[ .003. ] last name: negus
[ .004. ] nickname(s): spike, buck wheat, gomer, negus, stevie neegs the everyday super hero
[ .005. ] gender: male
[ .006. ] age:19
[ .007. ] birthday: 3/12/85
[ .008. ] height: 6'3
[ .009. ] hair color: blonde
[ .010. ] eye color: green
[ .011. ] race: white
[ .012. ] do you ( Read more... )

i spend all weekend with monika with the exception of sunday. i got really use to being with her. the more i am with her, the more things start to make more sense. she has changed me so much and it is for the better. i am not shallow like i once was and i start to see other things about a persons... well... personality. she is probably the best ( Read more... )