where are all of my so called "friends"? they say they care and that they will be here for me... but where are they? i know... off talking shit about me or acting like they care when i ask them to listen. since i have been down here not a single person has come to see me. the only friends that i have are adam, seth, paul, and my love monika. adam ( Read more... )

come hold me... or at least till these tears subside...

im so bipolar. i feel so inadaqute, so lost. i dont know who i am anymore. just when i seem to find who i am it seems that is when i loss it all. what is a man that doesnt know who he is? a lost boy. a lost boy, that is what i am. i am looking for that one thing i can do nothing about. lingering thoughts still stay in my head when they are not ( Read more... )

i need her. i need to have her in my life. sure i acting like i didnt at first, but now i see that i do. she is everything i need in my life and everything i want to be. i miss her. i need her. i want to love her... i just hope she truely feels the same and that when i get things together that we can fall in love. im so sorry that i hurt her... i ( Read more... )

Once again steven has fucked up yet another relationship. Drinkng+Steven=FUCK UP. I didnt cheat and get caught or anything... im just a mess i guess is the best way to put it. sometimes drinking yourself stupid is best when left to yourself or when you fall into a coma.

ABOUT TIME. IF THAT ONE BITCH AINT GONNA OD, THEN ITS BETTER I TAKE HER OUT. LOL

Steven once defeated the loch ness monster in hand to hand combat ( Read more... )

I GET THE NEW TBS THIS WEEK FROM NICOLE! IM SOOO EXCITED. i listend to some of it on mts.com ( Read more... )

at least there will be humor in it. lol. kind of wierd how i talk about going and doing it with a rusty coat hanger... lol. just cause this things said a date, now i have to prove it wrong. lol.

i am heaven sent ( Read more... )