Shades (THIRTEEN)
Title: Shades
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
CHAPTER THIRTEEN - DESPAIR
I blindly walk along the streets; trying to clear my hazy mind. It was such a long day, and I feel like breaking down any minute now. But no, I am still in Busan, so once I collapse here or create a scandal, Kyuhyun can easily rush to me and help.
As proud and selfish as I am right now, I don't need, no, want any help from Cho. I don't even want to see his face as of the moment while I am still confused. I don't want to see anyone I know, and most especially, I don't want to talk to someone, even if it is Donghae or Jongwoon-hyung.
Jongwoon-hyung...
I really did break my promise to him in the end, too. I don't know if I did the right thing. I knew Kyuhyun's color because I left Jongwoon-hyung, but if I didn't follow Kyuhyun, I wouldn't be confused as fuck right now for being whipped for several times, and I wouldn't hurt my favorite hyung.
Still, the sad fact that I left Jongwoon-hyung remains.
Everything in and on me aches. My bottom and thighs ache because of the hitting earlier, my stomach aches because of hunger, my eyes ache because of too much crying, my throat aches because of screaming, my mind aches because of over thinking, and my heart aches because...
I don't know, but I still ache for Kyuhyun despite what just happened.
I let out a heavy sigh. I can't go back to Seoul now for it is already late at night and the train station is closed. Also, damn unfortunately, I didn't bring the key to our future unit. I never knew that this day will lead to something like this. Therefore, I am left with no choice but to spend the night here on the streets. But I won't sleep, even if I'm very tired.
Karma really strikes so fast.
As I make my way to the convenience store, I see a familiar man walking towards me wearing a gentle smile. Even though I know that he works for Cho, I immediately return the gesture and didn't run away. There's this something about Shindong-hyung that makes me comfortable around him.
"Nowhere to go, Sungmin-ssi?" asks Shindong-hyung in an amusing tone. It is not as irritating as his boss's.
"Yeah... and please drop the -ssi. Just call me Sungmin." I beam brightly at him.
He looks puzzled at that. "I'm sorry, but I can't." Right. Kyuhyun. Like I care.
"How about calling me Sungmin when it's just the two of us and game freak isn't around?"
Probably realizing that I won't let this topic off, he sighs in surrender and nods. Then he suddenly blurts out, "You may stay in my house for the night," I just blink at him. Did Kyuhyun tell him to do this because I've got nowhere to stay at?
He smiles at me. "Mr. Cho doesn't know this, don't worry. Looking at the current situation you guys are in, I believe that both of you needs time and space away from each other. But if you want, I can te-"
"No! I mean, there's no need to do that, hyung. You were right. Thank you." I grin sheepishly. Okay, he's now my second favorite hyung.
Shindong-hyung then nods and leads me towards a small bungalow which looks obviously rarely used by its owner, judging from the furniture in it. Surprisingly, it is clean. He doesn't look like the type to clean a house every day, knowing he's like stuck with his boss for the whole day.
"It's not that big just like Mr. Cho's, but I think it's... rather homey." Hyung blabbers while walking around, checking if the lights are working.
"Don't you stay here, hyung?" I ask as I welcome myself and sit comfortably on the couch.
"No. I stay at Mr. Cho's. I bought this just in case..." he trails off, chuckling shyly after. He must have a lover, I guess. If he has a family already, then his family should be here in this house. Therefore, he's either single or dating. Shindong-hyung doesn't look gay to me, though.
"Sungmin-ah, I have to go now. Mr. Cho might be looking for me. Just call me if you need something or if something happens. Please lock the door and the windows, and don't entertain guests." He's like my appa.
"Yes, sir!" I stand up and walk with him to the door. "Thank you, hyung. I really appreciate this. Oh, and please take care of that spoiled brat boss of yours."
He laughs before stepping out of the house. However, he looks back at me with that gentle expression of his, and says, "Kyuhyun is a good man. Something just happened in the past that made him like that. But now I think he is trying his very best to change... for you,"
Huh? I open my mouth to ask what he meant by that, but he continues speaking, "He changed a lot ever since he met you, Sungmin, believe me. I hope you will continue to change him..." And then he goes off without letting me react.
From: Game Freak Cho
Hyung, where are you? Were you able to go back to Seoul? Should I bring you back there using my helicopter? Please tell me where you are and if you're okay... I wouldn't be able to sleep if I don't know if you're okay.
I don't have anything to react, anyways.
To: Game Freak Cho
I'm fine. Go to sleep.
~0~
I feel like I'm floating in the air. I can't even feel my feet on the ground.
I wasn't able to sleep last night, actually. Kyuhyun kept on calling and texting me, but I didn't respond, except for that first message he sent me that night. Also, I was on the process of trying to reach Jongwoon-hyung, but then again, karma is there so hyung didn't answer one single call and message from me. He even turned his phone off. It was so frustrating. I don't have any rights to complain, though.
Another thing, Donghae pestered me too for my whereabouts, making me contemplate whether I should tell him that I was staying at Cho's house or not, but then he might tell Jongwoon-hyung, which will surely make the guy more furious, so I just said I visited umma. I know he won't call umma to confirm it.
First thing in the morning, I cooked breakfast for Shindong-hyung to extend my gratitude for making me stay in his house, and then I waited for him to come back to properly bid farewell before heading to Seoul. I fortunately took a nap during the travel but it wasn't enough for Jongwoon-hyung and Kyuhyun's face bugged me even in my dreams.
My situation right now sucks.
I nervously and patiently wait for the door to open after pressing the doorbell. I have never been this nervous after my first encounter with Kyuhyun.
I control a loud gasp from coming out of my throat when the door opens, and a half-unconscious Jongwoon, with his yellow hair strands pointing at all directions, appears by my sight.
He yawns, He sounded like he's moaning, god. I am slightly aroused.
We stare at each other for like an eternity until he chooses to break the silence between us.
"Cho dumped you?" says hyung in a cold, bored tone. I can sense sarcasm on it.
I shake my head. I dumped him, actually.
"So you really stayed the entire night with him?" I slightly flinch at the accusing tone.
I vigorously deny it, avoiding his piercing glares. "I-I stayed with umma..."
He snorts. "You know you can't lie to me, Lee Sungmin. I called auntie last night, and she told me you weren't there." I gape at him in surprise. It's true that I just can't lie to hyung... but how did he know...?
"You don't think I won't get worried and look for you because I am completely disappointed in you?" My gaze falls on the floor because of guilt. I can't look at his expressionless face though his voice reflected his pain. I purse my lips before softly muttering, "His bodyguard let me sleep in his house..."
"Bodyguard?"
I nod. "I didn't stay at Kyuhyun's, I swear." I finally manage to look up at him, only to drop my gaze back to the polished floor.
I hear him sigh. "Look, I still don't want to talk to you. Besides, I'm tired. I'll go back to sleep." He immediately shuts the door down. I am so dead.
I want to cry, but no tear fell down. Why do things come at a time when we don't need it, but when we ask for it, nothing comes?
"That's just the irony of life," I hear an unfamiliar voice, so I look up and I see a beautiful red-haired man, grinning at me like Cheshire cat.
"We just can't get everything what we want all the time, my dear. Everything has a reason." The stranger says as he places a hand on my shoulder. He winks at me. Man, he is creepy.
A chuckle comes from him, and his grin didn't wipe off. "You look like someone who needs my help, so I'm here to offer you one!"
When I didn't say a word, he sighs, "I'm not a swindler or something. Do I look like a bad person to you?" Because I'm still intimidated by him, I shake my head, making him grin triumphantly.
"The name's Kim Heechul... future Mrs. Tan Heechul." Mrs.? What the- is he a transgender? He? She? What?
"Yes, pretty, I am gay... and you look like you're one too."
I blush. "Uhh..." I can't start a decent sentence.
"Nice to meet you too, Lee Sungmin." I snap my eyes wide open, and stare at him in disbelief.
"How did you know my name?!" And he said he's not a swindler! Stalker!
He laughs. "Relax, cutie pie, I am not a bad person. Soon enough, you will know everything about me. Including why and how I knew your name. But for now, think of more important matters and try to solve it. Remember, you can't have both. You have to choose one. Choose the one which holds the best interests of your heart. Take your time to weigh things out. No one's rushing you,"
Does he know about my problem? Who exactly is this person?
"And when you already chose one, still try your best to hold on to the other option that you left even if it's not too tight as the other, because after all, it was important to you, too."
My head is spinning. I can't understand a thing he said. I can't figure out what he is trying to tell me.
"'Til the next time we meet, Lee Sungmin-ssi. Oi, Wookie, when did you come back?!"
I watch Kim Heechul run towards a smaller brunet, who, in my opinion, resembles a mannequin. How can a guy look so pretty?
Heechul whispers something to the guy then points at me, so the petite man flashes a bright smile at me and bows slightly before walking away with the scarlet-haired.
What the hell is happening?
TO BE CONTINUED
-Unbetaed. Rushed cos I wanted to update this day.
-Not much KyuMin, but say hello to Heechul and Ryeowook! ^^
-I won't be updating next week because that's my exam week, so I have to study hehehe anyways, wish me luck!
-Thank you for commenting! I love you all! ^^
-Is the story's pace too slow? ><"
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
CHAPTER THIRTEEN - DESPAIR
I blindly walk along the streets; trying to clear my hazy mind. It was such a long day, and I feel like breaking down any minute now. But no, I am still in Busan, so once I collapse here or create a scandal, Kyuhyun can easily rush to me and help.
As proud and selfish as I am right now, I don't need, no, want any help from Cho. I don't even want to see his face as of the moment while I am still confused. I don't want to see anyone I know, and most especially, I don't want to talk to someone, even if it is Donghae or Jongwoon-hyung.
Jongwoon-hyung...
I really did break my promise to him in the end, too. I don't know if I did the right thing. I knew Kyuhyun's color because I left Jongwoon-hyung, but if I didn't follow Kyuhyun, I wouldn't be confused as fuck right now for being whipped for several times, and I wouldn't hurt my favorite hyung.
Still, the sad fact that I left Jongwoon-hyung remains.
Everything in and on me aches. My bottom and thighs ache because of the hitting earlier, my stomach aches because of hunger, my eyes ache because of too much crying, my throat aches because of screaming, my mind aches because of over thinking, and my heart aches because...
I don't know, but I still ache for Kyuhyun despite what just happened.
I let out a heavy sigh. I can't go back to Seoul now for it is already late at night and the train station is closed. Also, damn unfortunately, I didn't bring the key to our future unit. I never knew that this day will lead to something like this. Therefore, I am left with no choice but to spend the night here on the streets. But I won't sleep, even if I'm very tired.
Karma really strikes so fast.
As I make my way to the convenience store, I see a familiar man walking towards me wearing a gentle smile. Even though I know that he works for Cho, I immediately return the gesture and didn't run away. There's this something about Shindong-hyung that makes me comfortable around him.
"Nowhere to go, Sungmin-ssi?" asks Shindong-hyung in an amusing tone. It is not as irritating as his boss's.
"Yeah... and please drop the -ssi. Just call me Sungmin." I beam brightly at him.
He looks puzzled at that. "I'm sorry, but I can't." Right. Kyuhyun. Like I care.
"How about calling me Sungmin when it's just the two of us and game freak isn't around?"
Probably realizing that I won't let this topic off, he sighs in surrender and nods. Then he suddenly blurts out, "You may stay in my house for the night," I just blink at him. Did Kyuhyun tell him to do this because I've got nowhere to stay at?
He smiles at me. "Mr. Cho doesn't know this, don't worry. Looking at the current situation you guys are in, I believe that both of you needs time and space away from each other. But if you want, I can te-"
"No! I mean, there's no need to do that, hyung. You were right. Thank you." I grin sheepishly. Okay, he's now my second favorite hyung.
Shindong-hyung then nods and leads me towards a small bungalow which looks obviously rarely used by its owner, judging from the furniture in it. Surprisingly, it is clean. He doesn't look like the type to clean a house every day, knowing he's like stuck with his boss for the whole day.
"It's not that big just like Mr. Cho's, but I think it's... rather homey." Hyung blabbers while walking around, checking if the lights are working.
"Don't you stay here, hyung?" I ask as I welcome myself and sit comfortably on the couch.
"No. I stay at Mr. Cho's. I bought this just in case..." he trails off, chuckling shyly after. He must have a lover, I guess. If he has a family already, then his family should be here in this house. Therefore, he's either single or dating. Shindong-hyung doesn't look gay to me, though.
"Sungmin-ah, I have to go now. Mr. Cho might be looking for me. Just call me if you need something or if something happens. Please lock the door and the windows, and don't entertain guests." He's like my appa.
"Yes, sir!" I stand up and walk with him to the door. "Thank you, hyung. I really appreciate this. Oh, and please take care of that spoiled brat boss of yours."
He laughs before stepping out of the house. However, he looks back at me with that gentle expression of his, and says, "Kyuhyun is a good man. Something just happened in the past that made him like that. But now I think he is trying his very best to change... for you,"
Huh? I open my mouth to ask what he meant by that, but he continues speaking, "He changed a lot ever since he met you, Sungmin, believe me. I hope you will continue to change him..." And then he goes off without letting me react.
From: Game Freak Cho
Hyung, where are you? Were you able to go back to Seoul? Should I bring you back there using my helicopter? Please tell me where you are and if you're okay... I wouldn't be able to sleep if I don't know if you're okay.
I don't have anything to react, anyways.
To: Game Freak Cho
I'm fine. Go to sleep.
~0~
I feel like I'm floating in the air. I can't even feel my feet on the ground.
I wasn't able to sleep last night, actually. Kyuhyun kept on calling and texting me, but I didn't respond, except for that first message he sent me that night. Also, I was on the process of trying to reach Jongwoon-hyung, but then again, karma is there so hyung didn't answer one single call and message from me. He even turned his phone off. It was so frustrating. I don't have any rights to complain, though.
Another thing, Donghae pestered me too for my whereabouts, making me contemplate whether I should tell him that I was staying at Cho's house or not, but then he might tell Jongwoon-hyung, which will surely make the guy more furious, so I just said I visited umma. I know he won't call umma to confirm it.
First thing in the morning, I cooked breakfast for Shindong-hyung to extend my gratitude for making me stay in his house, and then I waited for him to come back to properly bid farewell before heading to Seoul. I fortunately took a nap during the travel but it wasn't enough for Jongwoon-hyung and Kyuhyun's face bugged me even in my dreams.
My situation right now sucks.
I nervously and patiently wait for the door to open after pressing the doorbell. I have never been this nervous after my first encounter with Kyuhyun.
I control a loud gasp from coming out of my throat when the door opens, and a half-unconscious Jongwoon, with his yellow hair strands pointing at all directions, appears by my sight.
He yawns, He sounded like he's moaning, god. I am slightly aroused.
We stare at each other for like an eternity until he chooses to break the silence between us.
"Cho dumped you?" says hyung in a cold, bored tone. I can sense sarcasm on it.
I shake my head. I dumped him, actually.
"So you really stayed the entire night with him?" I slightly flinch at the accusing tone.
I vigorously deny it, avoiding his piercing glares. "I-I stayed with umma..."
He snorts. "You know you can't lie to me, Lee Sungmin. I called auntie last night, and she told me you weren't there." I gape at him in surprise. It's true that I just can't lie to hyung... but how did he know...?
"You don't think I won't get worried and look for you because I am completely disappointed in you?" My gaze falls on the floor because of guilt. I can't look at his expressionless face though his voice reflected his pain. I purse my lips before softly muttering, "His bodyguard let me sleep in his house..."
"Bodyguard?"
I nod. "I didn't stay at Kyuhyun's, I swear." I finally manage to look up at him, only to drop my gaze back to the polished floor.
I hear him sigh. "Look, I still don't want to talk to you. Besides, I'm tired. I'll go back to sleep." He immediately shuts the door down. I am so dead.
I want to cry, but no tear fell down. Why do things come at a time when we don't need it, but when we ask for it, nothing comes?
"That's just the irony of life," I hear an unfamiliar voice, so I look up and I see a beautiful red-haired man, grinning at me like Cheshire cat.
"We just can't get everything what we want all the time, my dear. Everything has a reason." The stranger says as he places a hand on my shoulder. He winks at me. Man, he is creepy.
A chuckle comes from him, and his grin didn't wipe off. "You look like someone who needs my help, so I'm here to offer you one!"
When I didn't say a word, he sighs, "I'm not a swindler or something. Do I look like a bad person to you?" Because I'm still intimidated by him, I shake my head, making him grin triumphantly.
"The name's Kim Heechul... future Mrs. Tan Heechul." Mrs.? What the- is he a transgender? He? She? What?
"Yes, pretty, I am gay... and you look like you're one too."
I blush. "Uhh..." I can't start a decent sentence.
"Nice to meet you too, Lee Sungmin." I snap my eyes wide open, and stare at him in disbelief.
"How did you know my name?!" And he said he's not a swindler! Stalker!
He laughs. "Relax, cutie pie, I am not a bad person. Soon enough, you will know everything about me. Including why and how I knew your name. But for now, think of more important matters and try to solve it. Remember, you can't have both. You have to choose one. Choose the one which holds the best interests of your heart. Take your time to weigh things out. No one's rushing you,"
Does he know about my problem? Who exactly is this person?
"And when you already chose one, still try your best to hold on to the other option that you left even if it's not too tight as the other, because after all, it was important to you, too."
My head is spinning. I can't understand a thing he said. I can't figure out what he is trying to tell me.
"'Til the next time we meet, Lee Sungmin-ssi. Oi, Wookie, when did you come back?!"
I watch Kim Heechul run towards a smaller brunet, who, in my opinion, resembles a mannequin. How can a guy look so pretty?
Heechul whispers something to the guy then points at me, so the petite man flashes a bright smile at me and bows slightly before walking away with the scarlet-haired.
What the hell is happening?
TO BE CONTINUED
-Unbetaed. Rushed cos I wanted to update this day.
-Not much KyuMin, but say hello to Heechul and Ryeowook! ^^
-I won't be updating next week because that's my exam week, so I have to study hehehe anyways, wish me luck!
-Thank you for commenting! I love you all! ^^
-Is the story's pace too slow? ><"