tattoo
tiffany's ring
itouch
purse
heart earrings from metropark
necklace from metropark
stunna shades 
hair cut
mani/pedi
massage
clothes

As the day comes closer, the perfect picture I had in my mind becomes more faded and blurred

I'm scared that I won't be able to experience what I've been envisioning for the past couple of weeks

I'm not sure what else I'm really supposed to do or accomplish

However, I'll accept rescheduling and embrace it if it is needed

I WILL PASS .. when is just the ( Read more... )

Caffeine and energy drinks are useless after 12 hr shifts
Being awake is pointless if you can't even focus or concentrate
I'm tired and shaky
I'd rather be asleep if I can't absorb anymore information
The bitter white crystalline xanthine alkaloid is forcing me awake
and only people who work night shift understand this feeling

She's not just a friend.. she's my best friend
After graduation, I'll never see them again
I'm going to be friends w/ her for the rest of my life
They've made me cry
She's never made me cry
Their opinion of me now stems from one moment of weakness
She loves me because she knows who I really am after she's seen me at my weakest
They have judged me and ( Read more... )

"Crabs aren't used to having their abundant emotional needs met. When two Cancers hook up, then, they might not know how to deal with the fact that someone is lavishing them with the same caring and devotion they usually give to others but never get in return. You've both been longing for love for what seems like forever, but it's hard for you to ( Read more... )

a couple of years ago, when i thought i was in love..
we were talking the night before thanksgiving
i asked him what he was thankful for
he answered, "having you in my life..."

i want to feel those same kind butterflies again

i hate the person i've become
i'm mean
i'm cold-hearted
i'm resentful
i'm bitter
i'm always tired
i'm not as thin as i used to be
i want to blame it on school and all the stress
but that isnt fair is it?

i effing want ( this )

i miss my dorm .. having ppL in my room aLL the time.. wandering to ppL's rooms in the middle of the night .. pLaying in the LittLe theater ..

i miss the brady bunch! .. our famiLy dinners .. random nights out to de-stress .. getting Lost

( and i miss my other haLf! )

for the past year it seems like my life has been an ongoing conversation with God...

( religious rambLings here )