do you ever have one of those days where you feel like the lamest motherfucker ever?
and you are convinced you are totally a loser, and people only talk to you out of pity?
and right now, they are mocking you and your lame ass?
...
if you haven't felt like this, i hate you.
cause i'm totally having one of those feelings as i write this.
:/

i have NO idea what that means.
but, i hate my sister.
with a passion.
that, and i am currently not content with my lack of shows.
because if i go to green mountain, where the fuck am i going to go to see shows?!
i'm starting to get very sad.
i think that i MUST go see fob and atl this april.
AND i must find a way to see btmi.
cause i love them.

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i think my goal for this year is to be really cute.
you know how you go out, and you see that really cute girl with the funky style?
i want to be that girl.

( mmm, lameness! )

 i royally fucked up my hair.
not really.
it's not even that bad.
i just trimmed my bangs too short.
and one side of my hair is shorter...and slightly fucked up.
i hate when i do that.
because when i trim my own hair it's either hit or miss.
this time i missed.
fuckfuckfuck.

on to more important issues,
there are none.
my life is currently pathetic.

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hmmph,
hello.
well,
i don't know.
i am sick.
i'm like burning up.
and not in the jonas brothers sort of way.
in the, my face is on fire kind of way.
:/
not cool.
i don't feel like doing anything.
i just keep watching skins and reading perks.
it's not mentally healthy.
but i'm doing it anyway.
it's really not okay.

i need to get the fuck out of here.

but seriously folks.
i need a job. i'm actually going to dairy queen tomorrow to ask.
if i get a job there, liana will murder me.
hobokin, no jokin.
moving on,
speaking of lilah, she came over today.
she got me such exciting things in scotland.
[:
i got buttons! [the amazing chocolate. it's really just cadbury milk chocolate, but they are called buttons! ( Read more... )

 so i often find new things to not like about myself.
this is one i found today!

i am shy.
really shy.
usually just around new people.
like today, i was at skanklin, and some kid was like "sick hat" and i said thanks but i also just glanced and kept walking.
then walking out, apparently he was my moms student, so he and his friends were saying bye.
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to say you care for me.

[seriously hammer, this song needs to be put on a mix for me from you. because i want to forever have it.]

i am so ready for life right now.
not high school.
which, is of course, real life.
but i am ready for adult, on my own, out of the house, chilling like a villain life. 
yeah.

( surveysurveysurvey,yo. )

well, i'm back.
i didn't die.
all is well.
that was seriously the best weekend of my life thus far.
[:
i had such a good time, and it's exactly what i needed.

and, i'm going to green mountain, which is decided.
as of right now.
of course really pretty scottish man is going somewhere in boston.
i should have applied to a boston school.
dumb me.
oh well.
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i am so nervous for my flight tomorrow.
i still don't understand why.
i am just wicked nervous.
and i'm not feeling myself.
i think it's just the combo of project stress/mom being gone/ pms/ teenagerdom. 
i don't know.
i can't figure it out, but i'm just like losing it.
maybe it's wheatley.
cause i was okay til she moved back in.
thank buddha she's leaving ( Read more... )