I have class in less than an hour. My last official class of my freshman year at Lesley University. That is completely insane to think about....that after this class...and my finals next week....am DONE with my first year of COLLEGE. It all went by so fast...i don't even know what happened in my life this past year. I mean...where am i in my life? ( Read more... )

 Today a panel of Lesley alumni spoke to my Intro to Human Services class. I found it inspiring, yet i always found myself doubting my life and where i'm going with it. I really want to make a difference to this world...in some way or form....but i just haven't put in as much effort as i could to make this "difference". I don't volunteer or perform ( Read more... )

 I'm not perfect, but i'm a good person. That much i know. I hate hurting people....i avoid confrontation....i try not to judge....and i am nice to everyone....unless they give me a reason not to be. I don't steal. I'm honest, reliable, respectful. I am opinionated but also willing to listen to others different opinions...even if i don't agree with ( Read more... )

 
Truth
Heather Christine Mangone

She smiles when she greets me,
Not knowing I know the truth.
With a feared uneasiness she grabs me
Embracing who she thinks I am,
Who I am not anymore.

The atmosphere is heavy and cold,
Weighing down our light conversations.
But she is unaware of the anger I feel.
I conceal it, in hopes is will disperse,
Knowing all too well, ( Read more... )

The one night i am actually able to pass the fuck out without thinking of all the shit going on in my life.....i wake up sweaty and disoriented after repeated nightmares.

Life is not A bitch....it is THE bitch.

Come on, life.....give me a fucking break.

I'm just so tired....

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 I keep wondering if this is the breaking point....if my body is going to physically be able to withstand the stress and agony i have been feeling everyday. Each day i wake up miserable, forcing myself out of a bed i had only had the chance to sleep in for about 4 hours. My body aches, my nose is congested and bloody, my legs/hips hurt, when i ( Read more... )

 I want more than anything to be happy for her and to congratulate her, but every part of my soul will not let me.
I love her, she was one of my biggest supports for the past 3 years, as i was hers....but i cannot and will not sit here and watch her destroy her life.
Not that i think the gift of having a child is a burden that will destroy her life, ( Read more... )

 FINALLY! 
The sun is out and it's warm and enticing outside my window.
Sadly i'm stuck in class most of this beautiful day.....but i'll make the best of it.
Days like today put me in the best moods because it reminds me that there is only a few weeks left in hell before summer starts.

I can't fucking wait.

Welcome to Boston, Spring....atleast for ( Read more... )