I want to step into another life.

Another me. I’m so envy her; she had the best of all. She pretty and nice, walk and talk with confident , having a own chain of businesses, she running café, convenience shop and book store at the same time, she also in money exchange, and try to get license on having her own travel agencies.  She involve in ( Read more... )

I had a flashback, yes another flashback that keeps me from peaceful night.

For the first time, my sister was there, she help me to come conscious. I’m in terrifying condition, shaking, crying and scared, struggling to stay in present. She looking at the worst of me, I don’t want anyone to see me so vulnerable and weak. Especially my sisters but ( Read more... )

I thought by living positively thing will be change for me, such as my health condition and all but turn out I’m getting worst.

I thought by letting someone know about the abuse and suffering I’m going through I’ll get support, and some encouragement but turn out I get different opinion on everything. Some saying I’m going crazy by taking those ( Read more... )

It’s been a while…
As much as I try to ignore the thought, it’s keep coming back to haunt me.
While I’m being in plane, I was praying hard to not disturbing everyone in middle of the night by screaming and waking up everyone because of my sudden flashback attack. And I got Xanax and muscle relaxant as well. Lucky for me, I didn’t get flashback ( Read more... )

I’m in great mood today. I weighted at 90kg. I’m so freaking happy. Never thought I can feel this good to be in 90kg. I can see changes in myself already, I more energetic and less hungry. Being more energetic means a lot to me, I can move around, don’t feel tired anymore. Yesterday, Ain send facebook msg, she say how sorry she is to shout at me ( Read more... )

Drabble. .. 5 July 2011 ( Read more... )

잊을만도 한데 / Ijeulmando Hande (It’s Time to Forget ( Read more... )

When I was kid, I let the “guys” do anything to me. Somehow, I know it’s wrong, I let it be ( Read more... )

Life is much more better now days. Im working with japanese company, new environment, better salary and good people around me. Ain and Jasmin having good time in life too. My mother being great by not causing more trouble ( Read more... )