sometimes the time is just right, you know? the universe brings you to a place where the decision goes from "impossible" to "doable".
and that's where I am right now.
every part of life seems to take so long while you're going through it, and then when you look back on it, it seems like not such a long time after all. at least, it does to me.
if someone had told me 10, 20 or even 30 years ago that I would reach this place, I'd've thought they were mad. I *wanted* it, sometimes more strongly than others, but I just never really believed I would find the opportunity to do it.
In some ways I'm glad for the experiences of the last 30 years - they've made me a better and more well-rounded person than I would otherwise have been.
It's such a huge decision that I think one absolutely should take the time, as you have, to work your way to that point. The receptionist at one of my former jobs was a MTF TG and she shared a little of that with me but she was so wholly who she was (and I never knew her as Michael instead of Cass), I suppose, that I never felt much need to question her more about it than she volunteered herself.
I do look forward to reading your new journals and finding out more about what you're experiencing and processing!
Both journals added. I've already read through guy_thing with great interest, and look forward to reading more as it appears. You're taking a big, amazing, scary, bold step, and doing it with (it seems) courage and an admirable respect for the confusions and possible reservations of the General Public[TM]. Much kudos to you, then.
**big hugs**
Of course, it makes very little difference to me, since I never knew you under a girl's name anyway! (or is "Azhreia" set to change as well..?)
thanks, Cait :-) I'm really happy with how things are going so far - I know the ride gets bumpier from here on in, but it's one of those things that when you reach the place where it's *right*, you know it. As I'm very sure you know :-)
As for the name, I mostly introduce myself to new people as "I'm Alexander, my friends call me Alex", though quite a few people who've known me a while still call me Sandy. I specifically chose this masculine version of my birth name so that it was possible to do that.
My mother, for example, still calls me Sandy, and is starting to get the hang of referring to me as "My child, ... " rather than "My daughter ...". She can't quite manage to say "My son ...", but it's early days yet.
/me gives you a slightly belated birthday hug. Wish I could have been at the party - it sounded like you were having a blast :-)
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sometimes the time is just right, you know? the universe brings you to a place where the decision goes from "impossible" to "doable".
and that's where I am right now.
every part of life seems to take so long while you're going through it, and then when you look back on it, it seems like not such a long time after all. at least, it does to me.
if someone had told me 10, 20 or even 30 years ago that I would reach this place, I'd've thought they were mad. I *wanted* it, sometimes more strongly than others, but I just never really believed I would find the opportunity to do it.
In some ways I'm glad for the experiences of the last 30 years - they've made me a better and more well-rounded person than I would otherwise have been.
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I do look forward to reading your new journals and finding out more about what you're experiencing and processing!
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Both journals added. I've already read through guy_thing with great interest, and look forward to reading more as it appears. You're taking a big, amazing, scary, bold step, and doing it with (it seems) courage and an admirable respect for the confusions and possible reservations of the General Public[TM]. Much kudos to you, then.
**big hugs**
Of course, it makes very little difference to me, since I never knew you under a girl's name anyway! (or is "Azhreia" set to change as well..?)
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Nice to meet you, Alex.
(you've really gone and put a great big grin on my face - thanks!)
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thanks, Cait :-) I'm really happy with how things are going so far - I know the ride gets bumpier from here on in, but it's one of those things that when you reach the place where it's *right*, you know it. As I'm very sure you know :-)
As for the name, I mostly introduce myself to new people as "I'm Alexander, my friends call me Alex", though quite a few people who've known me a while still call me Sandy. I specifically chose this masculine version of my birth name so that it was possible to do that.
My mother, for example, still calls me Sandy, and is starting to get the hang of referring to me as "My child, ... " rather than "My daughter ...". She can't quite manage to say "My son ...", but it's early days yet.
/me gives you a slightly belated birthday hug. Wish I could have been at the party - it sounded like you were having a blast :-)
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thanks, treddypies :-)
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thanks! and keep the hugs coming, there's no such thing as too many hugs!
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