I've come to realize that we are so easily influenced by the people we hang around with. I went to a party at my coworker Amber's place. I drank more than I wanted to and I regret it the next day (today) of course. I think I'm done drinking for a long time, and if that means I can't hang out with Amber as often then that's just what that has to be ( Read more... )

I'm up early for work but I have more time on my hands than I expected. The past few days have been hectic and packed with time spent running around with friends. I love it so much and my coworker is having a house warming party tonight, which I plan to go to for a while. Monday I'm going to Ethiopian for dinner with some really good friends! ( Read more... )

I've been so irritable lately. I have little patience for anything. Although at work I still have patience and I am usually in a good mood there. All of yesterday I was bored, irritable, and anxious after I got back from work. I had to go walking at like 7 for an hour and a half because I was going nuts. I don't understand why I'm so unhappy, but ( Read more... )

Things are well enough! I don't know what it was that made me think of it just now, but I've come to realize I really enjoy my life not being depressed anymore. It's one of those things you don't really appreciate once you don't have to deal with it anymore. All the time I wish my stress would go away and I think my life is so awful because I'm ( Read more... )

So things with Izzy are ok now. I don't really understand how or why they are, but they are. He went back home for like 3ish days, to go to a friends birthday party and to have another one for himself with his friends there. I'm not so stressed anymore now that I said what I wanted to say, but I think going forward things might be a little ( Read more... )

I've been really stressed lately over Izzy. I worry, and I don't approve of the things he does. I've never known what I should do or what I should say so I held it in. Especially since this week (tomorrow) is his birthday and I wanted him to be happy. But I couldn't hold on to it anymore. I told him how the things he does make me feel that he's ( Read more... )

Ugh I'm so frustrated. I know Izzy will be upset that I'm blogging about something that agitated me without talking to him first about it but oh well. This is for me and my feelings. I feel so stressed it's ridiculous. I woke up this morning and I felt like my stomach was being wrung between someones hands. And I feel so angry! I was in the shower ( Read more... )

I just came back from going for a walk, which was definitely good. The weather here is very nice today, a good change from all the thunderstorms. I've just been so worked up all the time these past few weeks. So much more stress than I want to deal with. Yesterday and today my mother and I had some disagreements but they've been largely resolved ( Read more... )

I've felt pretty good lately. I feel like I'm a part of life, and a part of the world. I have a job, I'm interacting with people, making money, accepted to school. I feel like I can accomplish everything I've ever wanted to accomplish in life. It makes me feel good for once. I've spent most of my life depressed and pessimistic and fatalistic. Now I ( Read more... )

Ugh I wish I could go back to work sooner, as off-kilter as that may sound. I have to take anti-biotic for a skin infection until tomorrow so I couldn't work this whole week. Having so much free time is only stressing me out. It allows me to think too much and give in to my anxieties. I need to be strong and fight them as best as I can. Fortunately ( Read more... )