as far as the more serious stuff goes, yeah, i think you should investigate going back to school. of course money is always going to be a concern, but grad school can really make a huge difference in changing your future opportunities.
feeling alone at work SUCKS especially if you're feeling a little out of sorts with other things - i've been there and it is brutal!
good luck with figuring out what you want to do or what you need to do! hugs. xo.
Thanks for that link!!! I just may check that out it I don't get my ass to the cinema.
The money part about grad school is really scary but I'd most likely then be starting a career and thus able to make more money in the long run so it could even out in the end...
You are not pathetic or sad!! It just sounds to me like maybe you need a change in routine. Going back to school sounds like a good idea, or joining a club or a gym or something?
It's not gonna be like this forever.... just hang in there a little longer!
I think you're spot on about the routine! I think I do so little in order to save money etc. that I've gotten so down that when I DO go out I don't have as much fun as I should. I'll try to see if I can switch up my routine while a plan a larger change - like perhaps school.
I think having to live at home after being on your own is a huge factor in stressing you out. Not that you necessarily can move out now, but if you keep that in mind, maybe it will help. Like, "I know I'm better than this, I know nothing's wrong with me, it's just my situation" or something similar.
You know as much as I hate to admit it I think you're right. I thought I could be above US norms since I'm a rather global citizen, but in the end I was raised an American and any time I have to admit out loud that I live at home my pride takes one in the gut. A change is in order indeed.
Well, I've been friendless many many times. I moved so much with work and as a child/youngster that they were periods of having no friends or just about getting to know people. But unlike you, I like my own company, I *LOVE* going to the cinema alone, especially on afternoon shows when there's not many people around. Don't knock it before you try it. You don't like it cause you think people gonna judge you (are you judging yourself?) for going alone or you feel the need to have someone to talk about the film afterwards? Even now, I go to the cinema alone. Unfortunately, we don't share the same tastes in films with Ian and though he comes with me, I know I'm just dragging him. I bet your ass, I'd see Juno alone. I talk to him about it and he was "Great! Another teenage pregnancy arty movie! Ha! Ha
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Thanks for the long reply!azuki_pieJanuary 29 2008, 05:18:07 UTC
I hope you got that I think my aversion to things I think that are feminine is stupid. I know that crying is normal and good but I have some fear of giving myself over to too much emotion and thus I label emotion as negative and since women tend to be more emotional I label feminine things as negative.
You're quite right about the writing things down that worry me - I've been told I need to do this but I don't and I should make a point of it. Perhaps I'll do it here and then you can keep me in check (while you're still able).
You are also very right on the topic of school. I know I want to go back but my whole thing is being scared I'll choose the wrong one. But if I did break it down to where I did a little everyday or week I'd have a decision before I knew it.
I am in a better state then I was last night and happiness IS a state of mind so I just have to keep my chin up while trying to balance making sure I let myself cry every now and then so that my break down of last night doesn't have a repeat anytime soon!
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as far as the more serious stuff goes, yeah, i think you should investigate going back to school. of course money is always going to be a concern, but grad school can really make a huge difference in changing your future opportunities.
feeling alone at work SUCKS especially if you're feeling a little out of sorts with other things - i've been there and it is brutal!
good luck with figuring out what you want to do or what you need to do!
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The money part about grad school is really scary but I'd most likely then be starting a career and thus able to make more money in the long run so it could even out in the end...
Thanks for the thoughts!!
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It's not gonna be like this forever.... just hang in there a little longer!
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You're quite right about the writing things down that worry me - I've been told I need to do this but I don't and I should make a point of it. Perhaps I'll do it here and then you can keep me in check (while you're still able).
You are also very right on the topic of school. I know I want to go back but my whole thing is being scared I'll choose the wrong one. But if I did break it down to where I did a little everyday or week I'd have a decision before I knew it.
I am in a better state then I was last night and happiness IS a state of mind so I just have to keep my chin up while trying to balance making sure I let myself cry every now and then so that my break down of last night doesn't have a repeat anytime soon!
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