hi. so, sorry that my last entry was so... uh. depressing? and then I didn't update again. oops ( Read more... )

got in bed like 40 minutes ago, almost immediately started crying. haven't really been able to come to a full stop with that, it just starts up and then stops for a bit before starting up again. got out of bed maybe ten minutes ago because even though all i want to do is go to sleep i can't make my mind stop thinking about the rotting of my flesh ( Read more... )

*sigh*
why can't everything just be okay?

and now it's gone. typical.

there's nothing, oh god there's nothing that can fix this I JUST WANT TO SCREAM because oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck help

I want to be clawing at my throat strangling myself cutting something anything to give this thing a voice but I can't and I know this will go away but I'm in the storm right now and it hurts it hurts so much

what is wrong with me.

....hi. Sorry about the... uh.. six-month absence? it's been a while. and I'm really sorry that I left with just that previous depressing entry. I ended up having an amazing time in Berlin. and I kept meaning to write about it on here, but I do a daily writing exercise thing on another site called 750words, so most days I would write there and then ( Read more... )

so, sorry about posting something really kind of depressing and then just being completely absent for like a week or two ( Read more... )

Sometimes deviantART really just frustrates me. It just- *sigh* I hate it when I search a word, just to see what comes up, and everything that comes up on the first page is the farthest thing from what I was expecting/hoping for ( Read more... )

I feel a little better about life and much less burnt out by school, thanks in large part to Jordan, who is helping me do homework *by which I mean that he's helping me get started on my paper for Non-Chaucerian, and letting me work in his room, which is a big help*. At the same time, with the end of school approaching so very very fast, I am ( Read more... )

First of all, the GSA is going to a gay club in Nashville tonight, and part of me really wants to go, and I've been going back and forth on this all night, but I think that I'm really just not going to go, and there are a few reasons: one, I've never actually been to a club, so I have no idea if I will be able to handle it *clubs are kind of the ( Read more... )