I’ve made it this far, which seems like a minor miracle to me. I had the surgery for the last one at 6 and ½ weeks. Last Friday I woke up with shoulder and neck pain on my left side. This occasionally happens on my right side and subsides within a few days, but never once have I had this pain on the left side. Shoulder pain is one of the symptoms ( Read more... )

As in Fertile Myrtle, because I’m pregnant again. First a quick recap of May ( Read more... )

Is this a hint or a sick joke/painful lesson? Or both ( Read more... )

Almost nine years ago, I walked into my first bellydance class at a yoga studio in Wakefield, RI. I can’t say that I was instantly hooked with either the dance or the teacher, but I stayed with it. There were more frustrations than successes, but still I stayed. It took me 6 months to learn to shimmy, whereas most of the people who come to my class ( Read more... )

Today I took a $2665 risk. I moved $2600 from our emergency fund/savings account and paid off one of my student loans (lowest balance, variable interest rate). The payment is still processing, but I am considering this one paid off. Three years ago we had eight monthly debt payments, and now we are down to two ( Read more... )

As it turns out, I had one of my worries cleared up this weekend. I did end up starting my period right on schedule as if nothing had happened. Now my cycle is two weeks off from when it used to be, so I ovulate at the full moon and bleed at the new moon (it was the opposite). I am curious to see if this will reset itself or if this will be a new ( Read more... )

I’m taking things day by day, but having goals will help me to not dwell as well as to pass time more quickly while I play the waiting game. Practice last night with my pregnant friend was not as easy as I‘d hoped it would be, but it was not as difficult as I’d feared. It did make me realize how much I feel as though I am holding my breath right ( Read more... )

This weekend was exactly what I needed right now. Friday night I spent a pleasant evening imbibing alcohol and eating Chinese food and salad with my husband. I had my nose in a Sherrilyn Kenyon book (I know, I know), while Joel watched TV. We got up too bright and early in the morning (slightly hungover) to spend oodles of time and money getting ( Read more... )

Even though I am still working through and accepting the loss of my pregnancy and my tube, today seems to better and more balanced. This may be in part because I am less sick, it’s Friday and it’s not raining. I also received some very good advice after my post. I did have some realizations last night that were quite useful and telling. Wednesday, ( Read more... )

On finding what it takes to finally make me break down and all those other darker emotions that I haven’t expressed since my emergency surgery and pregnancy termination. In a month’s time I have had an emergency surgery/ending of my pregnancy and two colds. I rarely get sick, so to have two colds in one month’s time is extremely odd for me. I ( Read more... )