over the past few months i have felt a higher sense of feeling miserable.

i felt closer to god a bit or feel because i guess im talking to him now and i should do more of that. just write, talk out my feelings. a reason why this journal has been abadoned and shunned away when i most needed it. writing it down makes all of my troubles the more concrete and puts me in a vulnerable position of responsibilites and etc. but i ( Read more... )

its been three days since the fight but we had a talk this morning and we are back together. he's homeless but he's doing fine without me, it bothered me a bit. but we're back together and im so confused. he mentions god alot and the revelations he had and it just gives this big feeling of resentment and jealousy within me. why am i not chosen to ( Read more... )

i do i do i do i do. i love him so much and this is killing me, not seeing him, seeing him unhappy, seeing him happy. seeing him happy signifies that he's getting along fine without me which induces an anxious bitter pang in you know where but i love him too much to see him unhappy. yesterday i just wanted to go outside during our lil break and ( Read more... )

im really really highh. aie aie aie aieee. HI RHOBBIE! i got ur messageyyyyy woo yeah im still high and heh heh what a joke for amusing others. hurrah! im with my boyfriend right now at the school's computer lab toooooo i love my boyfriend i loveee him sky you bye bye him jonn aiek. i siwish i coould write more tripppy shiht lataaa but imlll ( Read more... )

i am totally in love with my current boyfriend. and he is in love with me ^_ ( Read more... )

i look at these old pictures and i realize, yes, i did love sev. now i know it was real love. all these flashbacks and memories came back. i shouldnt talk to him.

i think i will finally allow myself to admit that yes, i do have alot of guys hit on me. im always afraid of believing in such flattery.

just wish there was more cuter ones that do instead of jocks, 40 yr olds, gangsta wannabes etc.

how much can i allow in this entry? i do not know. crazy shit has been happening. my friend sam might go to jail all because he poured milk on his ex gf. his ex gf has done much worse like scratching the shit out of his arm etc. but she charged him with assault and battery and it happened on campus and smc is also charging him for the misdeamonor ( Read more... )

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