Had to eat more today for the audition. Here's the count. Looks like I'm fasting tomorrow ( Read more... )

I woke up pretty enthusiastic this morning. For breakfast I was gonna have coffee and a special K 90 calorie bar while I was getting ready. But then I was done getting ready before I finished so I had to eat really fast- which i absolutely despise. On the walk to class I started feeling really exhausted and sick to my stomach and I knew I wasn't ( Read more... )

First entry in a looooong time. I feel weird about getting on here too much because I don't want the website to show up on my history trail because my roommate uses my computer a lot. I have been good with my food intake while in college. I easily skip breakfast and lunch and I only go to dinner if invited. Even then I have a light sandwich or ( Read more... )

Got so trashed last night. I need to throw up but I can't in the community bathrooms in the dorms. I just need to flush everything out of my system. At least feeling sick will keep me from eating. Note to self...no more than three beers, you're body can't handle it!

Reasons to stop eating ( Read more... )

I've been doing horrible. I don't even want to think about it. I hate myself. Tomorrow I'm back to being on track because I haven't felt this sick with myself in a while. Fuck. I hate this fat I hate it! Why can't I controll it. When I'm in control I feel so great. I see results almost instantly. Now it's gotten to the point where I'm not ( Read more... )

I've been really out of controll lately. I've been exercising a lot but also eating a lot. I feel so gross. I'm definetly happier when I am not eating and my body isntantly shrinks. I'm going on another fast starting now. This time I'm not putting a time limit on it, and I'm just going to make it as long as I can go for. Well I lied, I'm ( Read more... )

I had been doing really good. I had been surving off of less than 100 calories so far this week and someday i didn't have any at all. But I was so exhausted today that I couldn't make it to the gym. I've gone every other day this week but today all i could do was sleep. I did go to ballet class so at least I got some exercise, just not as much ( Read more... )

I just started this journal today. I stumbled across this live journal thing through searching google and I wanted to be a part of it so I joined. My name is Kelsey. I'm 18 and I'm a ballerina. I'll write more as things develop.