Really really depressed. I look at pictures of me at my best (Christmas break) and then look in the mirror now and want to die ( Read more... )

I've been on this horrible cycle lately of starvation and then binging. It's like a week of not eating followed by a week of doing whatever I want. I've never been like this before, but I hate it ( Read more... )

So I'm in a pickle. I've done everything right. I run at least 3 miles everday. I don't have a car so I walk EVERYWHERE on campus and through the city. I fast for two or three days and eat on the third. I have only salad or fruit. I'm taking vitamins, drinking lots of water. WHY CAN'T I LOSE WEIGHT????? I am not gaining weight, but I just ( Read more... )

I've lost more than 10 pounds in a couple of weeks. My stomach still looks like Santa and my legs still look like giant hams ( Read more... )

Last night I couldn't go to sleep. I was so excited to get up the next day and not eat anything. I knew my ana would come back, that it would just take a little time. I love love love being in control! I ate once, but threw up. Not too shabby for my first day back. I mean I had been restricting and stuff, but you have to be in the ana state ( Read more... )

I hate who I've become ( Read more... )

Today is the beginning of the 100 hour fast. So I'm 10 hours into it right now. Alright only 90 more to go. Ha! HEre are my stats for the beginning...

Day: 1
Hour: 10
Starting weight: A sick 145.5
Hopeful ending weight: 138.5.....we will see.

So I've reached my breaking point today ( Read more... )

For one reason or another, I did bad this weekend. Ate more than I should have, and it's carried over till today. I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost it either. I am gonna finish out today, then fast for the rest of the week. Will I ever feel good about myself? I truly think not.

So I've reached a certain status when it comes to food ( Read more... )