I am not in a relationship. I want to be. I was hoping to be. However, I am not. Once more, someone has crashed into my life and turned it ass-end up. Things happened that turned one of my best friends suicidal, and as much as I want to spend time with the one I love, I don't think that I will be given the chance. Instead, I sit, and wait, and I ( Read more... )

It is never going to change. As much as I may want it to, things will not change. This is just to vent. I don't know where else to put it, but I need to get it out. I doubt that the person I want to read this, will, but here it is ( Read more... )

I'm treading black water and feel as if I may drown in an abyss of nothing. I should feel things, but I cannot bring myself to, I wonder if this is how she feels. I should actually take the time to talk to her.

Without these things, we would not have society. I know people who believe that people should be free, who believe that people, given completely free will would not abuse it, that people can check themselves, so to speak ( Read more... )

Another update, don't panic ( Read more... )

Hmm, I almost forgot my account here. I figured that I would update ( Read more... )

I don't know. What is the point of using this?

Has there ever been a trigger any of you have had for a perfectly decent mood to go tumbling into chaos?

There's no way I can willingly avoid it, though. I'm crazy, aren't I? I have to be completely nuts. If any of you still read this crap, I could really use someone to talk to.

Remember this day, and that you are simply not good enough as you are.

I have apparently been branded a liar, simply because I do not disclose everything that I have to say to someone who is outside of a conversation. -smirk- I would like to take a moment to laud the efforts of those who have effectively dropped the drama and gone on, for the most part, with their respective lives instead of carrying on in some ( Read more... )

Debt for getting to where I was needed overnight: 1,500$
Debt for vehicle to get there: 400$
Being able to be where I was needed as long as I could: Priceless.

-chuckles- Sufficed to say, I will not be doing much beyond this for a long time.