I've been feeling depressed today. I woke up feeling like absolute shit, and my mood didn't change whatsoever. Today was my boyfriend's 27th birthday and I spent a few hours with him. It felt good being with him for those few hours, but at the same time, everyone kept calling him about their plans for tonight, so I was sitting by myself most of the ( Read more... )

Today I've been feeling so depressed... Wayne texted me today to say happy easter, I kinda feel like he doesn't even care about me anymore. I ate okay today, but I still feel bad about what I ate for dinner. I felt full but I kept on eating, knowing I was gonna feel bad afterwards. Once the guilt kicked in, I decided to take laxatives. Honestly, I ( Read more... )

I ate so bad today... I started out pretty well, but as soon as I got home from school I had the ultimate binge, which I knew was gonna happen due to the fact that I was starving. I told myself when I was driving home that I was gonna be in control and not eat the pasta and just have cereal, but I knew that I would end up eating the whole box of ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't exist....

I hate my body so much, I try my best not to eat too much, but it's just so hard sometimes. I really want to be 110 pounds. The lowest weight i've been is 113 pounds and i loved it. I gained most of the weight back though. I don't know how much i weigh right now. I don't like to weigh myself anymore. I started taking laxatives to lose weight and it ( Read more... )