Sometimes I wonder... what must people think of me? Everyone thinks I followed David to Stony Brook... that is not how it was at all ( Read more... )

I used to worry that I would succumb to a life of unpleasantly comfortable mediocrity, or as Thoreau would say, a life of quiet desperation. Recently I have worried about this considerably less. The absurdity of what has transpired in the past few weeks feels like the convoluted and maddening plot of a Joseph Heller novel. Now I'm settled in my ( Read more... )

Change of plans; I won't be going to my dad's house yet.

Phone calls are welcome and encouraged. Please call my home phone number if you know it.

I'll be visiting my dad in New Mexico pretty soon, but if anyone would like to call me, I'll have my cell with me.

...Should do so now. I really need help moving my stuff because I need to get out of my place ASAP and owing to severe depression, movement of any kind is very difficult.

As I ponder how to cope with the fact that, apparently, standing at someone's door with your heart wide open is not enough for them to let you inside, I wonder, how does it make you feel to know that someone is crazy in love with you--literally crazy over her love for you?

I should probably mention... after my break up with David and my ill-fated attempt to start another relationship, I'm officially single. I'm on good terms with David, as am I with the other love interest I had pursued. It sucks to be lonely, but I guess it'll do for now.

I don't usually try to express what I'm feeling through other people's song lyrics, but I feel like this song fairly accurately captures the emotions of a recent unfortunate brush with love. There is in it the mix of anger, resignation, apathy, and ambivalence of someone who is troubled, not at being rejected by another, but at being denied what ( Read more... )

In a stroke of idiocy that even tops that of whoever stole David's credit card number to purchase music legitimately on iTunes, bureaucracy has proven once again to be incompatible with human reason. Observe the following absurd state of affairs ( Read more... )

I had a vision today.