so I definitely forgot I even had a livejournal until a few weeks ago...I think I'm going to start using it again because no one knows it exists except a few people. don't take my word on that one though, I may neglect this one just as much as my blog.

alright so my mom found the link to my journal somewhere, I'm sure I left it on her computer or something but in any event I've now been forced to delete all of my recent entries and so the most recent one you'll see in like september something of 2004. I'll eventually get through all of them, 100 something to go. I didn't realize that I've had ( Read more... )

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THERE'S NOTHING HERE

I hate the first day on the school week...I mean overall I had a pretty decent day but there were just a handful of moments that made me feel so incredibly low...they were moments when I guess for that instant I came to terms w/ my recent actions and how they aren't going to stop. It was hard to listen to the snide remarks and name calling and not ( Read more... )

another good day ( Read more... )

Hm...I can't say that my good mood's faded but it's definitely been dulled...I am so stressed, this year is going to be such a struggle for me to keep my head above the water. But, I can get used to that...what I can't get used to is Andrea being depressed. Anyone who knows Andrea knows what a happy person she consistently is. Life could be crap ( Read more... )

so yea I've been meaning to update like all week but just haven't had the time at all....I got my induction letter for French Honor Society this week. That was super exciting but I have to write my letter of intent like sometime this weekend probably because I wont have time during the week and that's stressful because I also have to write a letter ( Read more... )

I love good days...I've been having quite a few of them lately and each one just seems to be better than the one proceeding it. how amazingly awesome is that? At the same time, I see all these people around my having not so great days and I'm just like...hm I want to bask in my hapiness but I want to be a nurturer at the same time...I have no ( Read more... )

I'm the best person I can be...take it or leave it, love me or don't...I don't really care anymore ( Read more... )

Today was definitely a good day. Nothin too special, but nothing even remotely close to horrible either and that's more important. I finally have a 7th hour but it's not one I'm all too fond of, although the teacher seems cool enough so maybe it wont be so horrible. I just don't have any friends in it, like I 'know' almost the whole class but ( Read more... )