dreams and dreams

[babfab]

I'm busy enough and leaning toward being in a shitty mood cuz of the weather. Also someone broke into our car last night. Actually, since the door was unlocked I can't call it a "break-in" but still, they got in, poked around and only took a utility knife. But it's still gross to think of someone coming that far into our back yard to poke around

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dreams and such

[lezmo]

Your dream is awesome! It reminds me of the dream I had when the bats turned into eagles! But, what really struck me about your dream was the judging American Idol part. I for some reason am feeling like i need to tell you to pay attention to the word judge. I am not exactly sure why...but something about making judgements...either about yourself or somebody else or even both. I just need to tell you to think about that. It doesnt exactly feel like it is me coming up with this so i am kind of puzzled. But anyway, the whole thing about you being excited at the

aww shucks

[babfab]

Wow, what a great note! Thanx, Mo, for all your kind words. It is interesting how we've traveled along our path as friends. And how important it was for us both to wake up. We were self-destructing! Speaking of self-destructing, yes, the judging with the American Idol thing. I know - I'm very judgmental of myself and am gaining awareness of it - taking it out of the shadow - so I can uncover it and expose it to the light and let it wither there. The thing is because I'm so judgmental of myself, I'm judgmental of others. And what I kept saying to myself over the past couple years is how much I hate being judgmental of others and I wish I'd stop having that natural reflex to judge... and it was given to me that I will stop judging others when I've forgiven myself. And you're getting that same message so thank you for passing it on to me. Remember the hand-drying thing? "Be gentle with yourself." Same thing. It's all coming together!