why does my life seem so wrong! i don't want guys anymore all they cause is problems i mean if there was one thing that they are good for its making babies i waonder if there is a type of sexuality where your just not attractes to either sex? not that i'm thinking of that its just something that i thought of in all of my bitterness. i want to have ( Read more... )

if you like someone you tell them right. i mean i really wish that i could take back what i said tohim it would be so much better. if only there were some way.

if he likes me then why can't he just tell me. I mean it not like i'll ask him out or anything.its just nice to know that i'll be loved in return. its like the bsb say "when the one that you want doesn't want you too" or moulin rouge "the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return" i mean i don't want to love i just want ( Read more... )

there is so much to look forward to this year but i can't hepl but be scared. cuz once we get out og hight school then what! ya know. well i'm just going to pause things with me and my........guy. i really don't fell like saying crush i mean that sounds so second grade i guess i'll say fling! well i really wish that thinngs would have gone better ( Read more... )

i really wish that this whole healing thing would go alot faster. i guess when school starts it willl be better. i don't think i'll get with zac the only guy in my life right now is.......no one! i don't want any guys in my life right now i can't wait until school starts it will let me forget about luis and move on with my life. later dayz

well last night i did have a break down with audrey there. I'm really glad to have her in my life. i jst went to go get my brothers schedules and the middle school was exactly the same. it was crazy. i'm gonna go get my senior pictures taken for school and i can't wait! this year is going to be the best. AHHHHHHH!!!!!

i really wish that it could have gone better with luis i mean i really thought long and hard about it and i really do feel that i did love him or still do but i really can't tell him because telling him would mean that i waloud be letting my guard down one more time. I can't do that agian not anymore. i don't wanna love if it means this much pain ( Read more... )

i just got back from san diego it was alot of fun. but of course fun can never last my parent are fighting for god knows what reason and i can't stand it. mym mom has a way of handling things in a way that isn't so......good i guess? i reall wish that my life was going better. and for all of you girl out there that wish you had a guy that would ( Read more... )

I'm going to san diego and honestly i wish i were more excited i've relized that i just don't excited at the same things that i used to and thats a little scary. maybe i'm just maturing. Last night i went to yhe movies with my friends(including micheal) it was a lot of fun. well i better go my mom is nagging. don't you just hate parents. until next

sometimes i wonder if my family wants me to have fun. i mean my family loves me so much that they can't learn to let me go. i love them unconditionally but sometimes i need i break. can they understand that. today i went and got my schedule for school. even though i don't show enough emotion it really was the highlight of my summer. micheal is such ( Read more... )