I'm terribly sad.. and hurt. I dunno.. i mess up everything. and the worst part is.. its just me that ruins things.. and that upsets me. a lot. like.. i don't want to be with me.. myself. I just want to get out of my own skin and like.. sleep cause i want someone to hold me and comfort me and tell me everything is ok and that I'm loved.. the way I ( Read more... )

GAGGAAAAAARAWR! FUCKING LIARS = KRYST. blah blah blah ( Read more... )

....GRAH! I don't even want to get into it. I'm just like... upst and want to cry but I'm not going to cause ash is here and i don't want to work myself up. But right now.. i feel taken for granted.

So today was good but i'm seriously missin' dominic. And it doesn't look like we're gonna get to be together too much in the next few days cause of work and friends. but it WILL work! Yes. but i miss him A LOT!.

I dont know whats wrong withme. I'm like.. gah. I cry all the time. A lot everyday. And i'm just sad and i'm like REALLY REALLY sensitive. and when it pisses or upsets people i'm like awwwwwww... go crawl into self and get even more upset and thn i get mad cause i'm upset. and it's like omg diekillitfuckerrrawgstupidsnowballaffect. Yeah. well i'm ( Read more... )

there are times when i feel like my feelings don't matter. and yeah with dominic at the moment thats how Ifeel but i know he does care. But like my family and friends do it too. It makes me sad. Like i feel like i don't have a voice and that i'm invisible or unimportant. ah. whatever.

>.< I feel like i'm gonna puke.

I'm like crying super hard. I'm so frustrated and depressed for like no reason. and like everything is making want to scream. I want to be comforted so bad. and now my eyes fucking burn from my mascara! god damn that hurts. i just want to be comforted SO bad. I like need reassurance and stuff too.

I'm seriously barely holding it together.

Steel walls enclose my pain ( Read more... )