The real truth is that I truly get why I struggled so much in the aftermath. You have to know yourself. The most. The Best. You have to know what you want out of life. Moreso, what are you willing to do to get those things you want. Can you accept failure? Can you accept defeat? Can you accept putting your all and everything into something knowing ( Read more... )

I feel a little bit needy and I am a little bit restless at times. Ok maybe to be honest I am a lot of bit restless at times. I am making plans but I dont currently have any. Its kind of nice but nerve wracking at the same time ( Read more... )

I am so close. In so many ways. It almost doesn't make sense! Finished my last college classes an undergrad already. It came and went before I really even had time to notice. No! I literally went to my three classes and didn't think about it being my last until I was completely finished with the last one! It was actually kind of crazy.
So that means ( Read more... )

I drank a sip of coffee. The spoon was still in the cup. I held it back with my middle finger. The cup says Westside Story the musical.
I was fairly disappointed with Beauty and the Beast. How could you cut the whole castle fight scene out?!? Assholes! I've been around people who LOVE Beauty and the Beast. I could have directed better. Maybe someday ( Read more... )

This is awesome and crazy all at the same time: I get butterflies in my stomach every time I read about another senior who is about to be done with their senior years of college. They keep saying, "one week left" or "finals next week" or [lately] "Done!" It's somewhat nerve wracking to be completely honest. I really only do have ten some odd days ( Read more... )

READY! GO! DAZZLE ME!

I hate the feeling of being wrong. It's not that I can't handle the fact that I am not right all the time but more literally the sensation of being wrong. Maybe its having to accept being humble. I'm not sure but I know I don't like it.

But then, me humble? Lol.

~I am learning that it is not me! Ha!

DAZZLE ME!

I also know that I am ( Read more... )

I've really tried to write this post so many times. Every time I either didn't have my thoughts collected enough; or I didn't have enough time; or I couldn't find the right words ( Read more... )

 --> I Talk shit to hold myself accountable. I feel like once I talked it up, I have to live up to it.
--> One of my Greatest fears is not being good enough; not doing enough with the chance that I have been given in life.
--> I have a difficult time loving and a difficult time trusting. I didn't always know the various ways this affected ( Read more... )

  2012!  
Should I start of with an awesome rant about how 2012 is going to be awesome? And soooo much better than 2011? And how I am going to change and accomplish so much?

Nah.

It seems appropriate to leave a post on my 22nd birthday. Its scary as hell and great to be 22. It's not like it was when we were turning 21. There isn't any real excitement ( Read more... )

And maybe she already knew. Maybe she had already guessed all of this. I doubt it though. At the mere age of 18, not too many girls are observing all of that ( Read more... )