For some reason I thought it would be a good idea to put several (too many) beers straight to the throat. I am leaving for a week for the holidays and felt like celebrating with my friends. It is now 12:35am, I'm a little bit drunk, and I feel a rant coming on ( Read more... )

For the first time ever and probably to one of the more unlikely people, I came clean about everything. Everything emotional thought and feeling. I woke up, she was there, and typical me, I couldn't stop talking and I wanted to explain everything. It felt good ( Read more... )

I want you to want me ( Read more... )

I've I strive hard enough, I can become distracted enough to tune out the entire world around me. I can tune out people I don't want to listen to, problems, everything ( Read more... )

Seriously, there is too much to say for me to attempt to capture my feelings in words right now. I feel an odd assortment of things than I am desperately trying to arrange into some sense of order;

I performed for nights back to back, of the best performances of my life. The hard work and dedication that I put into this show payed off and its one of ( Read more... )

It's because I have the inability to settle. It's always been a gift and a curse. By not accepting good enough, I can continue to get better. But my not accepting good enough, good things past me by ( Read more... )

I pick up my phone sometimes to send an honest message. Most times a messaging that would still expose the fact that my heart still hurts a little bit. It's not grief, it's just sadness at a lack of understanding. It's not even all the time ( Read more... )

That might be the truest reaction of all.

I feel disgusted.

----> At the same time I feel an immense satisfaction;
A satisfaction that with a little less poise (which maybe means a few drinks) would turn in to scathing remarks commentating on certain inadequacy.

---->And yet, what the fuck do I have to be bothered by?
My entire life I have worked to ( Read more... )

Opened and closed:
As You Like it, like it was clock work. It really came about so fast. I was ready for it too. Its kind of crazy to be in that kind of a grind mode. I suppose that's what it will be like too though right? Real life is here. As ready as I have always been for it, I'm not sure that I am now.

From the Subject:
In the midst of pain and ( Read more... )

I was cold last nite because the covers were falling off the bed. This was annoying because they had been the last few nites. Like the kind of annoying-falling off too, Where like half the covers are on the bed and half are on the floor- the wide way too ( Read more... )