class was soooo fuckin borin. i wanted to cry... that is all.

self actualization and realization are funny things. when you have that moment of epiphany, it's enlightening. i just sent someone an email and i just read sumthin on myspace that made me come to my senses. i cant make him love me, hell i cant even make him like me. but i keep asking myself why i care. is it b/c right now he is unnattainable when ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to the mall with chris and ronald. then we went to old navy and target. darnell was in ronald's room and i was slick flirting with him. i know he's not right for me, but flirting is harmless, plus im lonely... after that i went home and trina called me to see if i wanted to go get some food at midnight... me, her, and jam jam went ( Read more... )

so yesterday it snowed here in M town. you know ppl went crazy of course. it was pretty. i wish i had a chance to play in it more tho. i was too tired and annoyed. i left work purty early, then went hom eot clean and ish....then i took a long nap and i was lonely. and bored so i decided to cook myself dinner. i cooked this huge ass dinner as if i ( Read more... )

i had so much fun today with my buddy hotboy run. we had a destinys child concert and i sang all the parts so i guess im beyonce. i had soo much fun. and we watched the grammy's. kanye was cool. i should be doing my homework but FUCK IT lol ( Read more... )

i have been tryin to get my mind off mr wrong. yesterday i went to chilis with trina, petra, and kristen. then we went to jam jams. i think i really need to be in the presence of my close friends. bc they are helpin me out in my time of need ( Read more... )

so i think i know who he is so madly in love with and i feel like crying. i wish he cared that much about me. i hate that i care this much. i wish i didnt. i cant do this right now. i have too much to do but i cant help that tear rollin down my cheek.

im not in a bad mood, i just feel as if right now i am walking blindly thru a forrest. it's weird. i just feel as if i dont have any feelings. i know that it paradoxical but it makes sense to me. i realize that i have a lot going for me right now. i have a pretty decent job, i have money (which does not equal happiness), i have a wonderful family ( Read more... )

saturday ( Read more... )

so it wasnt was i was expecting. i outta know better by now. i will update more on this later. i actually shed a tear. im so frustrated