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i am filled with immense self-hatred and i know that for my life to get better i must learn to be gentle with myself and accept waves of feelings as they come and forgive but i just feel terminally shell-shocked and ill and like i'm a desperate, terrible person.

is that i literally have no reason to be on the internet. i haven't had facebook for 3+ months. i still have tumblr but i haven't been on it in at least a week. i don't even need to go online to check my email or my bank account because i can do that from my phone--sometimes i like to, to have a bigger screen to view everything on but it's not ( Read more... )

i feel as though every time i return to livejournal i realize that nothing in my life has changed. i'm still floundering, confounded with words and miserable. it's been 8+ years... and i feel the same now.