written by: Aly:)

See me smiling in the mirror,
Tears falling down my pained cheeks,
Laughing hysterically,
I knew I got too close,
Trusted you too much,
I'm getting close again,
Trusting myself again,
I'm gonna do it right this time,
I'm gonna show the world what they want to see.

I shove the razor into my wrist,
Cut carefully and painlessly,
Carve these ( Read more... )

wow... lately.. i live for my friends love and they are what keeps me alive.. if it werent for them.. i would be sitting there in my room with the razors ( Read more... )

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im not supposed to be crying
i am supposed to be smiling

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what the fuck.. all fo a sudden shit is going down hill ( Read more... )

wow..
it really fucking sucks..
to see my friends in such..
sadness..
its like all of a sudden..
their just SAD..
and i cant think of any ways to help..
i wanna help..
i always do..
but i cant always help..
grr this sucks major fucking ass..
it makes me want to cry..
blah.. you dont get it nevermind..
end rant.

im still sick ( Read more... )

 Redoctobre:  i guess ur "depressing" in the same way i'm pyschotic...if u want to call it that...consciously...maybe? i dunno...dont hate me
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  i dont hate you
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  wtf are you talking about
Redoctobre:  that in some way we are both consciously fucked up...but dont care anyway....we just kinda give into those vibes...
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people are here
im sitting her
all of a sudden
i feel like im...
gonna be sick why
i have no clue why

i want to sleep..
but they are here
i woke up at 1:30

i miss people..
why cant they come see me..
all i want is for them to say hi..
not online..
and they dont have to stay

hmm why this sudden mood swing?
i dont know.. damnit.. mood swings

do di do... i seed my robbie and krys and tiara and bryan art and aline and amanda and shaina and lauren and and lily and and and and.. ummm thats it? i went to lehman and to hang out

and i got a sign off the window at burger king and white eyeliner and i gots ummm.. whast else?

I GOT HARASSED INFRONT OF DUNKIN DONUTS!

anddddd umm i got pushed ( Read more... )

 PuNkRoCpYrO136:  hola senorita.. como los gato en el pantelones?
MoMsTaLkSmE:  do i have a cat in my pants
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  lmfao!!!!
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  do you?
MoMsTaLkSmE:  nope
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  LIES!!! tu hay un gato en tu pantelones
MoMsTaLkSmE:  lol
MoMsTaLkSmE:  no ella, tu stupida
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  noooooooo el... fucko tu!
PuNkRoCpYrO136:  whats ( Read more... )