I wasn't going to come back to livejournal, but I think I'm going to with a new user name and stuff. If you'd like to be added, send me a message.

So I was out on my backporch chain smoking, and coughing up a lung because I smoke all too much, and I had this whole entry planed out in my head. Everything I wanted to say and wanted people to realize... but then I came to a conclusion.

I think I'm going to just dissapear for a bit. No livejournal, no AIM, no myspace (it's being deleted), no ( Read more... )

Yeah. I hate coming home's to slaps in the face but I should have, kind of, prepared myself for it.

Maryland was amazing. I miss it so much already. I can't wait to go back when Rose come's home from France.

Pictures soon, promise.

Fuck you.

You didn't get to see me in my dress.

I'm fucking going to Maryland today.I couldn't be more excited. Getting the fuck out of here. A temporary break from reality. And I mean really, prom with Gabe? There will be a million and two pictures when I get back of me and polka dotted dress and ugly pink shoes... it'll be amazinnnggggg ( Read more... )

And like that, it's completely over.I've been replaced.

I can't stop shaking. My whole body hurts.

I've never cried so hard. I've never hurt so bad.

He's all yours.

Nothing has ever hurt like this.

I'm not going to want to wake up tomorrow.

And like that, I'm deathly afraid all over again.

I hope you fucking regret this.

(yet I still ( Read more... )

Crushed is right, I'm fucking crushed beyond belief.
I'm tierd of this one sided shit. Because that's really how it is.

"I want to hate you so bad, but I can't stop this anymore then you can. So honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything...This is all wrong and it shows...You've got this silly way of keeping me ( Read more... )

Today is the 15th. That means GO KARTS OPEN!

It's also 2:22, make a wish.

I'm also on break for the next week. I couldn't be happier about that. Time to get shit together. Gather my thoughts. Go to Maryland and get away for a bit. Maybe spend some more time with you.

Knowing I made you cry was the hardest thing to ever hear.Nothing hurt as bad ( Read more... )

What am I doing? Everything's a mess right now. I don't want to be at school and I just walked in. I'm awful ( Read more... )

Today I broke down. Absolutely broke down...
Ihateanxietyattacks.

If I could only tell you half the stuff running through my head.

I hate myself for this.