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Everything is going wrong...
I am having absolutely the worst week ever!! So justin left last friday and before he left we got kinda close. We were talking about getting married and stuff after college just crazy shit like that, so that made me think that after he left we would still be close. I havent talked to him since last Friday. He doesn't answer the phone when I call, ( Read more... ) -
Still Sad...
Tonite was so depressing. It was my last nite with the girls before they leave me for college. I can't believe it came so soon. I'm gonna miss Christina so much and I know she's only going 30 mins away, but things are gonna be so different. Who am I supposed to sit next to in lit and act crazy with? Who's gonna laugh at my EXTREMELY corny jokes? ( Read more... ) -
Still Sad...
Tonite was so depressing. It was my last nite with the girls before they leave me for college. I can't believe it came so soon. I'm gonna miss Christina so much and I know she's only going 30 mins away, but things are gonna be so different. Who am I supposed to sit next to in lit and act crazy with? Who's gonna laugh at my EXTREMELY corny jokes? ( Read more... ) -
My baby....
Life is so confusing. Now that I have my baby, all that I want more than anything on earth I want my son to have a good father. Just someone to take care of him and want to be with him. It makes me so sad. I just look at him every nite and I lay there and cry myself to sleep because he deserves more than anyone in the world to have afather to help ( Read more... ) -
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Jaden and I are doing great!! Things are a little stressful with getting stuff ready for school and going back to work, but we are adjusting. I went on a date with a guy last weekend! His name is Adrian. I'm not sure about him, but I thnk it's just me. I dont think I'll be sure about anyone for awhile. I've been hurt too many times to be ready to ( Read more... ) -
College Bound!
I went to orientation today. It was amazing. I feel so grown up. I met a guy. Well, i didn't meet him, I already knew him. He graduated from NC in 2003. He's really cute. He asked me out for tomorrow. We ar gonna go work out and then go swimming. I feel like I have a few things in order now. I have my baby, my school and now I'm back into dating ( Read more... ) -
He's finally here!!
Jaden Anthony was born on Friday July 8th at 12:19 in the afternoon. He was 7lbs 12 ounces. I never thought my life would change so much so quickly! I have a new found appreciation for life. I see the way that he experiences things for the first time and I feel so alive!! After pushing such a beautiful life out of my body I feel so accomplished. I ( Read more... ) -
Nothing yet...
I'm still waiting. Ive had like 3 contractions but they were nothing big enough or frequent enough. Maybe tomorrow. So far he's a day late. Well, I know what kind of personality he's got. THe doctors say he should be here by this weekend. THat's fine as long as they dont have to induce. I dont want those kind of drugs in my system. I can't wait! ( Read more... ) -
one day left!
ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the doctor today and they tried to rupture my membranes and I won't know if it worked for 24 hours. I can't wait. My doctor also said that if it didnt work that he would be here by this weekend and if he's not here by Monday then they will induce. So whether he likes it or not hes coming within the next week! I ( Read more... )
