I don't know how to control my emotions anymore. I feel like all I ever am is ANGRY or depressed lately. I just want to cry all the time, and scream as well. I feel like nothing really makes me happy anymore. I love summer and I love this weather, but I just can't bring myself to be happy. But I know that I'd be just as upset if I were in Rutland. ( Read more... )

After I wrote that entry last night, I was really looking forward to spending some time with Lars, seeing as we'd had some strange time. He called me towards the end of the entry at like 10:15 to tell me that his grandma who has diabeties was shaking and he was taking her to Wake Med. and I was like alright are you still planning on coming out to ( Read more... )

So after spending two amazing days at the beach with Lars, shit hit the fan last night. We had our first argument. He actually picked up his phone when it rang in the middle of this "argument" and told the person who he was talking to he had to go because he was in the middle of an ARGUMENT!! Who does that?! With the other person laying there, ( Read more... )

Well I just got back from spending the last two days at the beach with Lars :) Despite the fact that it rained pretty much the whole time (with the exception of the drive there and the hour or two that we got to play in the ocean) we still had a great time. We got what we wanted and needed, some rest and relaxation, and of course, some alone time. ( Read more... )

I was clearly not prepared for a boyfriend. How long has it been? I don't think I know how to do this anymore, or if I even have it in me.

I have this CRAZY intense relationship with this guy Lars, who I met over spring break, and now see every day since he got home from Missouri. He wasn't down here the first week I was here because he was home visiting family, and he stays with his grandparents down here and works. I knew he was going to be here this summer so that we could hang out ( Read more... )

so...I got a job. I'm going to be hostessing, and possibly waitressing at Ragazzis. The Italian resteraunt my brother works at. It will make transportation easy. I'm pretty excited. Because as a hostess I will get paid better hourly than the wait staff, and still get tipped out. Unfortunately I won't get paid as well hourly wage as I would if I ( Read more... )

Your Life: The Soundtrack
So here's how it works:
Open your choice of music player [iTunes, Limewire, Kazaa, etc.] and put it on shuffle. Press play. For every question type the song that's on. And when you go to a new question press the next button. No cheating. Ready? GO!

Opening credits:
Man in the hall - State Radio

Waking up on an average ( Read more... )

Let me just give you a quick overview of my life right now: STRESSSSSS!!!

Today: 8 a.m. dramatic analysis final...went alright, had some lunch, went to the theatre to get my drawings from tracing paper to water color paper, came back to my room to touch up the line quality, worked on my color encyclopedia, then went to work at 5. Called my mom and ( Read more... )

This is more like what I was thinking about earlier and couldn't explain ( Read more... )