i knew that i didnt matter.
i never thought that he would say it.
i really miss him.

so camp was fun
i found a boy there
i really miss everyone from camp
i kinda wanna be there now
life is shit
shit is life

i am really confuzed.
it is my birthday in 14 days.
but it feels like i am much older than 16.
i feel like any day now i will just wake up and be the age i think that i am.
i feel like 85.
or around there.
just a really experienced age.
and for all who are keeping tract my life is on the shits again.
i mean christmas is the time of giving.
i have absolutly ( Read more... )

happening brightened my day.
seeing tara made it even better.
iloveyouall!
updatermorelaterpeeps

well life is down that tubes.
so happening should be amazing.
but i am getting nothing down in preperation for it.
it is wednesday and i just realized that tomorrow i am going to be at happening.
you think that one would be estatic.
i am just blah.
nobody in my life really has shown interest in what i like.
i really would like to know that someone cares.
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life sucks but...
happening was amazing.

p.s. death might be in the future

My Needs so far in life:
-a boyfriend
-a life
-a car
-a true friend
(you peeps count but you dont live in distance of my school)
hearts
have fun!

i officially think that the world sucks.
everyone is in love with someone.
or has a good reason to live.
my friend's 2nd dad died.
he was a great guy and didn't deserve to leave such amazing people.
so i went to my first real wake last night.
i was terrified to know that when i go into that room all of those people would be there for this amazing guy.
my ( Read more... )

wow!!
i miss everyone from happening like crazy.
so i went to a teaming today and it hit me that i am a complete and total retard.
i have no life,
nothing exciting to talk about,
and if i did have something it would be like i moved which like everyobody already knew.
my life sucks.
i know think about the kids in berma.
they get a little cup of rice and ( Read more... )