Okay. So I decided to just change the entry instead of the date because... this sucks that it's so far ahead... so I'm going to wait until it is the actual time to write in here.
Yesturday Milo and I had this talk. I asked him what he wanted. Simply just what do you want? He couldn't answer. I know what I want. I want him. A Godly relationship with ( Read more... )

Okay. So I was just pretty much a wreck yesturday due to anxoiety and being overwhelmed. 
I freaked out because I didn't know. I hate not being sure of things. That's when I get crazy.
Funny story though. I went to Mountasia last night (spelling?) for a retreat. It was fun. RIght?
Nope. I felt like I didn't belong there with those people at all. Which ( Read more... )

I know it seems like I only write about one thing on here, but it's the only place I can get it out without people I don't trust reading it ( Read more... )

Have you ever just felt completely and utterly pathetic?

The phone vibrates and my life lights up hoping to GOD that it might be him.

I need a life. I'm done with this self pitty crap.

It's not self pitty, I'm not pouting... I'm just forget it.

I'm going across the street. I'm going to go lay in his bed and soak in the smell.

Soak up the memories ( Read more... )

I miss him. A lot. 
He will never know...
Because I will never tell.
Let's just see what happens.
Hopefully it will setlle with time.
I am waiting for his return to home.

So I was doing fine, I thought Milo and I would be back to almost normal when he got home ( Read more... )

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I kind of want to kiss Kevin again... ( Read more... )

I noticed, you never really know how much you love someone until you see them do one of three things ( Read more... )

Okay. Last night. FREAKING AMAZING ( Read more... )

Okay... so... I moved. Two days ago, we moved into a house RIGHT across the street from Milo. I'm looking out the family room window, and guess what I see. His car, and his house. How wicked is that??? I already spend SOOOO much time with him, now all I have to do is walk across the street or wait for him to come over here. It's awesome. I've ( Read more... )