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"you are the only good thing i have"
I'm so happy right now.I wish for everyone that reads my regular rantings. To everyone who feels they've gotten inside of my head, my heart, my mind or any OTHER part of me from my blogs, i hope that one day you can feel this happy. I hope that you can get your heart broken so bad, and then feel this happy because it just over writes every past ( Read more... ) -
it's only hard at night.
i wrote a poem... :|
I check my email, on the hour;
i'm pathetic, and it shows.
that's okay, atleast i'm the only one that knows.
i cling to my sheets.
holding onto something that i want so bad.
something i've wanted, for so long
something i'm not patient enough to deserve
something i'll never have.
you're someone, that i can not love.
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this is for keeps
as i'm pondering about you and i, forever
my brain is pumping an unusal secretion of lust;
Eight months, to the day that i met this boy.. he supprises me by walking right back in my life. With a smile. just like when he left. I take back my previous entry. So much is going on for him again, i wis i could just jump one state over and give him the ( Read more... ) -
i cant take it.
ugh, i this weekend. jesus. let me start from the begining.
friday - i left school early, to go shopping with khandis. and as soon as we're at the mall we get a text from renee that says the school is ON FIRE. and obviously we're like UHM WTF. so apparently some wise ass caught the wood shop room on fire and it spread to the art room! and the ( Read more... ) -
tonight i'll make a secret oath
reguardless of what happens next, you're my beloved you just don't know it yet.
last night i made a secret oah
to keep chasing after you
and i am not going to stop
weather you like it or not.
if someone pisses me off enough to make me cry, all hell will break loose.
i will start spazzing out with tears, just for reasons that everyone is already aware of.
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ten bucks says you don't have it in you
it's never going to be the same again, is it?
am i missing something that never existed?... i think so
truth is.. i'm still not okay, and i'm taking time to realize that's okay.
because i couldn't direct you to a happy soul to save my life
we're all somewhat falling apart, atleast i'm not so alone.
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i'm not alone.
riss and i are going completely insane, at the same time.
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huh-huh-huh-hush
i put the words from his hands, with your face, and for a split second i'm fine.
i cried twice today.
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i have periodic moments where i'm fine.
and then i have moments like these. where i just want to cry and puke and freak out. god, i'm not taking this lightly. i wish i could. i keep telling myself that i am, but i'm not. i feel so sick, so tired, so confused. i guess i really did have my hopes up. i'm never doing THAT again. god, i'm sitting here listening to OLD ashlee simpson, like, ( Read more... ) -
let's think this through again, lets take a different spin.
it happened.
three cheers for predicting things.
i haven't felt this shitty since december 10th 2007.
i dont want to sleep, i'm going to think or dream of better things than what is actually happening.
NINE. N I N E. months.
i didnt tell her for a fucking reason
i told her for another fucking reason
spilling your heart out to someone: $900
finding out you' ( Read more... )
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