Pulling back onto track. I think there was a definite relapse there over the past several days, a relapse that's resulted in some unnecessary softness reappearing around the thighs that I can't ignore.. it's not much but i NOTICED. now i'm in boston visiting friends, and as a result i'm walking a TON, and freaking out about spending money, which ( Read more... )

urgh. i spose this was inevitable.. i kinda let myself go this past week. its so difficult to gain control back after you let one thing slide, then another, then another... i'm drinking coffee like crazy, smoking loads, and i've been eating ice cream and all kinds of shit that i want lately. i know i gained some back.. i must be around 116 now, if ( Read more... )

so my car got broken into the other day, plus i was entertaining some important people at work (which required constant going out for food), so it's been bad.. i've been eating bread, butter, chocolate. urgh ( Read more... )

i just dont see it. i dont see how it's possible to commit to weight loss TILL FUCKING PERFECTION and stay "healthy".. to somehow manage not to get obsessed, to not get an EDNOS. to not become completely preoccupied with counting, measuring, being terrified of the scale, always feeling guilty about eating, freaking out when you havent exercised for ( Read more... )

so at the party last night i consumed the following:

( insanity )

lovely morning today, i'm about to have COFFFFFEEEE and EGGGSS for breakfast. it shall be glorious. but i gotta restrain myself from eating bread a cheese.. shite.

i think i must have been a lil bloated yesterday morning as well, because the scale said 112 even today. nay too bad, nay too bad. all the more reason to be careful as fuck around food ( Read more... )

braved the scale today.

113 lbs.

this aint terrible, considering i had some "moments" last week. losing exactly a pound a week at this rate. ssssssooooo sllllllllooooooowwwwwww. but at least its progress. trying to stay motivated, still got at least 8 lbs to go. urgh.. this cant possible take another two months!!! but if that's what it takes, i' ( Read more... )

i smoked today. AGHHH ( Read more... )

hmm, two good days in a row. i ate around 1200 and exercised my friggizzin butt off ( Read more... )

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