now this just HURTS. cara didn`t finally realize i loved Alan the way i do until August 4th,2001. goodness..
blonde PUBE..
caraboo
2001-08-04 10:34 (link ( Read more... )

changed the journal around somewhat. i`m so fuckin bored. God Help Me. i`ll update tonight after Alan leaves. happy Easter to anyone&everyone.

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hoorah! we had some nice rain last night. i watched some of the lightning with Alan, you know, when he was here and everything. i don`t think things can get too much more happier. i had to talk to him yesterday about some personal issues ( Read more... )

life has just let me down. i give up on life. i couldn`t just get to see my boyfriend for just 2 days. then he gets suspended. and i can`t get Jesse`s ass away from me. no matter how many times i tell him i don`t like him and for him just fucking leave me alone. he just keeps returning. Jesus lord.. what to do when your being stalked throughout ( Read more... )

shit Man! i hate them damn muthafuckas who run other people`s business all over to other people. they need some that fuckin Ether. shit that make your soul burn slow. ya`ll know how shit be goin down.

last post today, honestly. i just watched The Players Championship ( congratulations to uhhm. Craig Perks ) he won and all. well, all day i`ve been wanting to go play a full 18holes of golf. all i need is someone to take me ;/ sucks anus.

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i`m bored and tired. but can`t sleep. i thought about today which is mine&alan's 11month anniversary. it brought tears to my eyes.. i don`t know what i was thinking.. no one is on my side in this certain situation. everyone is against my feelings. and i hate myself for the way i feel. i don`t know how to control any of it. not even tears that ( Read more... )

So i went and saw E.T. with Cara.. and her special jackanus someone. and i thought it was just going to be the two of us. anyway, Alan hasn`t called at all today. only this morning. it shouldn`t bother me like this, but it does. hmm, when i was eatin some turds one fell down my shirt and melted just below my bra and when i got home i discovered ( Read more... )