It wasn't appropriate for him to be my friend?  Well, that hurt.  Yeah, I was a bit dramatic for a bit... I hit a rough patch... you know with my life being a bit fucked up and my mum having cancer and all.  But he couldn't drop a friendly line every blue moon or simply ask how I was doing?  In fact, if he had... he would have seen that I was doing ( Read more... )

Yes, I am tipsy... but I never fucking write in this thing when I am in a good mood or happy or whatnot... so what better time than now.. when I am in a good mood... even if it is because I'm tipsy hehe ( Read more... )

UGHHHH. Mistake ( Read more... )

I feel hollow and sad.  There is simply too much going on right now and all of it is truly awful and painful.  I can't keep my thoughts straight and I feel so lost.  I can't help but play the "woe is me" card.... but life really isn't being fair to me at present.  I need some good news... something to hold onto.  On top of everything else... I let ( Read more... )

Where to fucking begin?  Well, let's start with the bomb:  My mother has breast cancer.  Fun times.  Honestly, February has barely even gotten started and it is kicking my ass ( Read more... )

I'm feeling relatively positive.... so, I thought I would make a note of it considering I don't write too many positive things on here.  So yeah, generally pretty good.... although I still haven't been sleeping much... and when I do get an hour or two in... I have nightmares.  It sucks.  I just feel like I'm functioning on a much lower level than I ( Read more... )

I swear I'm bipolar.  Well, maybe not full-blown bipolar... because those bitches be crazy... but I definitely have some sort of imbalance.  One second I am happy and feeling positive and going for drinks with friends and feeling like life is going to be ok and feeling strong.  The next I am sad and lazy and thinking about my exes and feeling ( Read more... )

I am in such a fun, giggly mood.  Something awful must be about to happen.

:)

Here is an insanely long New Year's Survey I used to fill in every year.  I don't think I've done it for a few... but now seems like a good time to give it a whirl again for shits and giggles.  Let's reflect on this crazy year, shall we.  ;)

( Come And Take A Walk On The Wild Side... )

I never knew my sister could be so so cruel. She has hurt me so badly i can't even begin to describe. She is so cold and heartless that I honestly don't recognize her. It is terrifying. And I don't know what to do or how to solve things. Every time I try to talk she refuses and only hurts me more. She is my sister... and I really thought that ( Read more... )