Fic: All Your Secret Wishes Chapter 7
"Man, you look like hell," Chris commented when Jensen joined them for breakfast.
"Thanks, I love you too man." Jensen shot back. He knew he looked like hell; that’s what happens when you has the man you love more than anything sharing your bed and you’re up all night trying to keep yourself from getting a boner.
"I take it Jared is still having nightmares?" Steve asked, concern in his voice for both Jensen and Jared as he placed a cup of still steaming hot coffee in front of Jensen.
"I love you, man," Jensen exclaimed as he snatched up the cup of coffee. "Why can't you be more like Steve?" Jensen asked shooting a glare at his other so-called best friend. “And yeah, he is.”
Unfazed by Jensen's glare, Chris shrugged his shoulders. "Steve has his charms and I have mine. At least I'm not a kiss up."
Jensen had to admit that was true. Chris certainly had a charm about him that had alphas, omegas and other betas tripping over their feet trying to get his attention. "As long as you keep that charm away from Jared I don't care who you use it on."
Chris snorted. "Trust me I would never dream of using it on Jared." ‘I know it would be a waste of my charms. Jared only sees one person and that is you.'
Steve slowly shook his head, not understanding how Jensen could miss his utter possessiveness over Jared. Everything about Jensen screamed ‘Jared is mine.’ He had an undisputed claim over the omega and he didn't even know it. "Are the nightmares getting any better?" For now, getting Jensen to see what was before him didn't matter; it was healing Jared.
"The nightmares are beginning to lessen but he still has them and I think it will be a while before they fade," Jensen explained to Steve and Chris.
"What about getting Jared some self-defence classes? It might help him heal if he knows that he can defend himself if this should happen again." Steve suggested and he hoped he wasn't crossing some kind of line but Jensen wasn't the only one worried about Jared.
Jensen cursed himself; he couldn't believe that he hadn't thought of that himself. "Jason at the gym offers self-defense class. I'll stop in and talk to him before I head home. Thanks for the suggestion, Steve."
"Hey, you’re not the only one worried about Jared." Steve gave Jensen a friendly slap on the back.
Jensen knew that was true; everyone was worried and missed Jared's smile and overall puppy likeness. ‘He's still there and I will do everything in my power to make him feel safe again.’
Momoa’s Gym. Jensen had a membership with it for years and he did his best to keep a regular workout schedule. Call him vain, but he liked to stay in shape and yeah, he liked the way Jared’s eyes would darken when he came back from the gym or the sweet smell of Jared’s lust when he came back from a run.
"Hey Jason, can I talk to you?" Jensen called, chasing after Jason Momoa, the personal trainer at his gym. He knew the man offered self-defence training courses.
Jason Momoa was someone that Jensen normally would try to keep Jared away from. Not only was the alpha handsome but also had a kind nature and was extremely protective over omegas.
"Hey Jensen, what can I do for you?" Jason asked, turning to face the other man with a smile on his face.
"Listen, I was wondering if it was possible for me to bring Jared to one of your self-defence classes? I think they might really help him." Jensen really hoped that if Jared learned how to defend himself it might help bring back the old Jared.
Jason didn't need to ask who Jared was, there wasn't a soul alive that didn't know Jared, and if you knew Jensen you knew Jared. "Sure bring him around. I'd be happy to show him some moves. It never hurts for an omega to know a few moves to defend themselves."
A wave of relief washed over Jensen. "Thanks, man."
Jared Padalecki felt like a coward. "I’m certainly hiding away like one when nothing really happened to me." Jared couldn't even look Jensen in the eyes anymore; he didn't want to see the disappointment in his face.
For the past week he couldn’t bring himself to leave the house. He was to terrified to go to school, but since Jared was one of the brightest students in his grade and with it so close to being graduation, Jared was given permission to finish out the rest of the work from home.
Jared figured that they unleashed Danneel on the school.
Curled up in the corner of their sofa, Jared lifted his head when he heard Jensen enter the room.
"Hey, how was work?" Jared greeted with a soft smile. The moment that he laid eyes on Jensen he felt like he could breathe again.
Jensen made his way over to Jared's side and sat down beside his omega. ‘No, not my omega, I've got to remember that.’ "Good. Listen I talked to Jason and I was wondering if you wanted to check out the self-defense class he has?"
Chewing on his lower lip, Jared looked unsure. "Will you be there with me?" Jared asked, looking pleadingly up at Jensen.
"Of course, I will." And not just for Jared's own peace of mind but his as well.
"Okay, I'll give it a shot." One class wouldn't hurt. "Do you think I could meet Jason before taking one of his classes?" He wasn't comfortable in meeting alphas he didn't know just yet.
"Yeah, I don't see why not. I'll arrange something the next time I see him."
Nodding, Jared snuggled in against Jared's side breathing in deeply the smell of his alpha.
With Jared’s request in mind, Jensen made sure he stopped by the gym before heading into work and was happy when he spotted Jason alone in his office.
Knocking on the door Jensen waited for Jason to finish up what he was doing.. “Hey, Jason.”
Jason grinned up at Jensen from behind his glasses, “Hey Jensen, what can I do for you?”
"It’s about Jared. He was wondering if we could meet before your class. I understand why you might not want to do it but it would make Jared feel so much more comfortable." And the only thing that mattered to Jensen was Jared being comfortable.
Jason knew that there was something that Jensen wasn't telling him but it wasn't his place to ask. "No problem, I'm more than happy to meet with you guys before you attend one of my classes." Actually, it wasn't as strange as Jensen thought; Jason had plenty of assault survivors who wanted to meet with him before or after class so they could get used to another alpha's scent.
He didn't know what Jared was to Jensen other than he was Jensen's whether they knew it or not.
Jensen smiled thankfully at Jason. "Thanks, man that would mean a lot to us." And it would not just for Jared but for himself as well.
"Like I said no problem dude, just let me know when's a good time for you and I'll check my schedule," Jason reassured Jensen. "Jared really means a lot to you, doesn't he?"
"He's my whole world," Jensen admitted.
That’s what Jason figured, "Then I will do everything in my power to help you keep your world safe."
Jared was nervous, that much was clear as he stuck as close as possible to Jensen, keeping him between him and the other alpha.
Jason could smell the nervousness pouring off of Jared in waves and the protectiveness coming off of Jensen, warning every alpha around that Jared was under his protection and he would rip apart anyone who dared to mess with him. ‘And they aren't even mated yet, damn I wonder how possessive and protective Jensen is going to become when they do mate.’ There wasn't a hint of doubt in Jason's mind that they would end up mated.
"Hi, you must be Jared. I'm Jason and it's nice to meet you." Jason knew not to get too close to Jared or Jensen would make good on his silent threat.
Having grown up with Jensen, Jared was used to seeing handsome alphas and while no one would come close to Jensen's looks Jason was incredibly hot. "Hi, it's nice to meet you." Jared gave a little wave but made no effort to move away from Jensen. But he couldn't keep himself from blurting out, "How do you keep in such great shape? Do you work out a lot?" Jared asked as he stared up at Jason with awe.
Jason could see why Jensen was so taken with the cute little omega; he was downright adorable and if he didn't know that Jensen would kill him if he tried anything with Jared he might have asked the young omega out and show him a good time. That didn't mean he couldn't tease Jensen just a little. "I fuck a lot."
The blush that painted Jared's cheeks was more than worth the death glare Jensen was currently throwing his way. The omega smelled so good, so pure, he had to commend Jensen on his self-control. There was no way that he would have been able to resist for so long.
Flashes of having that kind of workout with Jensen ran through Jared's mind and he felt his cheeks getting warm and to his horror, he felt himself starting to get wet.
The smell of a ripe omega filled the air and Jensen growled low and deep in his chest as Jason took a long deep sniff homing in on Jared. Jensen didn't want to but he would fight his friend if he tried anything with his Jared.
It was a true test of his willpower as Jared's scent washed over him. Jason dug his nails into his palm because he knew how easy it would be to take Jared right here and now on this chair but it would also be the last thing he would ever do as Jensen would kill him before he laid one finger on Jared.
Jensen's eyes were dark as they met Jason's and they held the promise of violence if Jason made one move towards Jared. Friendship would not stop Jensen from defending what was his and Jared was his.
Jason slowly raised his hands and backed away from Jared, putting as much distance as he could between him and the omega without being rude. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt Jared's feelings but he also wouldn't force the omega into something he didn't want.
Jared could feel his cheeks heating up, he couldn't believe that he had gotten wet over thinking about what it would like to be fucked by Jensen, and he was so embarrassed.
Jensen could see the shame in Jared's eyes and he didn't like it one bit. Twisting in his seat, he reached out and cupped Jared's face in his hands. "Hey, this isn't your fault and nothing to be ashamed about; we can't control our body's natural reactions." Jensen would know that better than anyone. More than once he had popped his knot over something Jared had done and more than once his own wet dreams of Jared had caused him a few problems. Jensen just didn't like how everyone could smell Jared's desire - that was for him and him alone.
Jason could only shake his head; he couldn’t understand how or why Jensen was denying what everybody knew - that Jared belonged solely to Jensen. "Jensen's right and I actually feel honoured that I would get such a reaction from such a lovely creature such as yourself." Jason winked at Jared and loved the shy smile he got from the omega.
‘How could I have forgotten how much of a flirt Jason is?’ Jensen tried not to glare at the other alpha as he unleashed his charm on Jared.
Jason knew he was playing with fire flirting with Jared like this but he just couldn't help it. The kid was just so damn cute. ‘Now I know why Jensen has kept him away from me. I would too if Jared was my true mate, still, there's no harm in flirting.’
"Don't you have a class to teach?" Jensen growled, wanting nothing more than to tug Jared into his arms and get him far away from Jason.
"That I do. Jared it was an absolute pleasure in meeting you. I hope to see you in my class." Winking at Jared, Jason placed a kiss on the back of the blushing omega's hand and he could hear Jensen's dangerous growl and fought the urge to smirk at his friend when Jared glanced at him to see if he was okay with this.
The class was interesting and Jared learned a lot from the time he spent with Jason.
Jared tried not to blush as Jason body brushed up against his; while Jason was no Jensen he was still very handsome.
Jason could feel Jensen's eyes on him as he straightened out Jared's stance and knew that the other alpha was carefully watching where he put his hands. ‘You have got it bad my friend. Very bad. I just wish that you would act on it.'
Jensen's nails dug into his palms as he watched Jason touch what was his and while he knew that Jason didn't mean anything sexual by it, Jensen still wanted to rip him apart for laying his hands on Jared.
The hour long class felt like an eternity to Jensen and more times than he could count he was ready to tear Jason's hands off for lingering on Jared's skin. He had a hard time keeping control of himself and it wasn't until Jared was back at his side did he relax.
It warmed Jensen's heart to see Jared's smile looking a little more real as he bounced over to him. "I'm so proud of you, Jared, you did really good out there," Jensen informed Jared once he reached him.
Jared felt his heart skip a beat as Jensen told him he was proud of him. "I'm going to go shower and change. You won't leave me will you?" Jared couldn't quite hide his fear as his voice wavered slightly.
Giving Jared a soft smile, Jensen couldn't stop himself from reaching out and stroking Jared's cheek as he promised, "I'm not going anywhere."
Jason waited until Jared passed him heading for the showers before he moved towards Jensen, knowing the other alpha wanted an update. "Jared did great, I think this might really help him. I take it Danneel gave him some training?" Jason would know Danneel's dirty fighting style anywhere.
"Yeah, she did. She informed me that she was going to teach Jared a few moves just in case some knothead refuses to respect the word no." Jensen swallowed hard as he whispered out, "It saved Jared that night."
Jason gazed at his friend out of the corner of his eye, "Way Jared tells it, you saved him. That kid loves you something fierce." Patting Jensen on the shoulder, Jason offered one last piece of advice, "That kind of love only comes around once in a lifetime and not everyone is as lucky to find it. Don't let it slip through your fingers because you are afraid."
Jensen could only stare at Jason's retreating back. ‘Am I really that transparent?’ The question running through his mind wasn't could he take the chance, but should he?
Jared wasn't all the comfortable in sharing showers and locker rooms. He had always been like that - ashamed of his scrawny body and gangly legs. His low self-esteem was part of the reason that he knew that Jensen would never see him as a mate. Given the beautiful people Jensen had dated in the past, what hope did he have?
Reaching Jensen's side, Jared shoved his negative thoughts out of his mind. "Jensen, I'm ready to go."
Shaking himself, Jensen shoved down the emotions that Jason had stirred up in him and focused on Jared. "Alright how about some ice cream on the way home?" Jensen offered as he took Jared's bag from him.
Jared's face lit up into a huge smile showing off his dimples as the two of them exited the gym."Thank you for this." Jared wrapped his arms around Jensen and held on tightly to him. "It really helped me." Jared felt a lot better knowing that now he could defend himself.
"I'm glad. Your safety is everything to me." Jensen admitted in a soft voice as he steeled himself not to give into the urge to never let Jared go.
“No really thank you, Jensen, for everything.” Clinging to Jensen, Jared breathed in the scent of his alpha and wished desperately at this moment that he could kiss him.
There was no way for Jensen to deny how perfectly Jared’s body fitted against his; as if the omega had been created for him and him alone.
“Jensen,” Jared whispered softly as he gazed at Jensen, love shining in his eyes.
He’s so close. All Jensen would have to do is bend his head down and kiss him. He could see the longing in Jared’s eyes and it matched his own. But as much as he wanted Jared, he couldn't take that chance. "We can't, Jared."
Jared's lower lip trembled as he looked at Jensen with hurt shining in his eyes and Jensen longed to wipe that look from his eyes but he was doing what was best for them. “It would never work between us, Jared.” It broke Jensen’s heart to say those words.
“Why? Because we are step father and step son? That is bullshit! You can’t tell me that you don’t feel it? You can’t feel that I was made for you? Our mating wouldn’t be that taboo, family, actual blood-related family matings have happened. Look at that wildly popular show that has two brothers as true mates. Sure, not everyone is going to be that understanding, but aren’t we worth fighting for?” Jared felt his heartbreaking in half.
"You don't get it! You're all that I want! You're all that I need! No matter how long it takes for you to see that I am meant for you. No matter how much it breaks my heart, I will be right here waiting for you. There is no other alpha that I can trust other than you. There is no one I love more than you." Pushing away from Jensen, Jared turned on his heel and ran away from the man, not even noticing when his tears began to fall. After all, Jared had gotten used to the taste of his own tears; he had cried so many times over Jensen.
Jensen was helpless and could only watch him go. “It’s better this way.” At this point, he didn't know who he was trying to convince - himself or Jared.
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