As I fear that my life is not going to end.. And I am scared that I shall fall once more and not get up... never to love... nor to be loved again I stay down, in the shadows where I know I belong until someone reaches down and helps me out into the sun, just long enough to touch my skin till it burns my flesh into the red that I am With my anger ( Read more... )

That night, the night was fairly warm as I slipped out of the party, struggling to hold back my tears and making it only as far as the rock pile. I spent what seemed like ages just sitting there shivering even though the night was warm. It took me a minute to move as i sat there instead with my hands on top of my knees and my forehead pressed ( Read more... )

Why must i always be dumb? I dun understand. I saw that about a week ago that kyndal doesn't really want me.. she lead me on, and you know what.. I am okay with that.. if she wants some kid for the summer instead of someone who she could of had forever, that is fine.. I have found someone else that won't do this to me.. I have had a good bit of ( Read more... )

time, such a fragil thing... you can never get it back, so just make the best of it.. I was almost setn away this weekend for certain reasons.. But we have decided for counseling instead. Now someone know everything to me, to every little nook and crany.. and i am glad for it.. People know about my journal now.. weird. michele emily and ( Read more... )

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DESTINY
When the Rain falls
my thoughts of you come to view
the rain reminds me of my tear drops
like heaven's crying too
I miss the tender words you say
that made my heart ring
and took my breath away
I feel your passion and love
that helps me pull through
I know we'll be together again one day
I can feel it in my heart

Why do i hurt so much..

SRR And I have been talking more and more recently. It has been helping me through my insanely pitiful life, with little dramas that make me feel like I have an actual trouble in life. When I think about what I am feeling, I am so disgusted by the fact I am when there are people that have went through horric terrors, and all I have is a smashed ( Read more... )

In life. Theres a lot of hurtfuls steps you take. If you end up loving someone, move cautiously at all times. You will be burned if not. Love blinds you of the real prospective of life, but opens up a part of the real meaning of it. I love kyndal with all my heart. All she seems to be doing lately is bringing me up on the mountian on wish it ( Read more... )

Past few days have been weird. It seems as though kyndal nd I may get back together. I almost wish that i could get a girlfriend to prevent it. All that happens between us is drama. And she has done somethings that I may not be able to forgive ehr for for a long time. But anyways, Times have been perfvectly great. I had an awsome weekend, ( Read more... )

I broke my pipe today. I have decided maybe i need to calm down on pot. Having it only made it my number one priority. I feel much better now. I kep the main peice that is now broke. It was a gift from my bro, so I am going to keep it as a reminder to what I was doing. But yeah, life has been silly lately. I dun't know if I am in a bad mood ( Read more... )