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grace
grace is: the snow, how it fell & fell in big, beautiful clumps, like white peonies falling from the sky, while i tried not to hold my breath. a room full of others, each one holding the space while i tried not to weep the entire way through a story that isn't someone elses, but my own. a husband taking time off to watch the children while i pursue ( Read more... ) -
holding the space.
when my grandmother was dying, it was my job to hold the space. i was the one that kept people focused on What Was Going On in the room; this wasn't a time for idle chatter & listening to the news. this was a time to Be With our loved one, to sit with her, to stroke her hair, to let her know that It Was Okay, that all was well, that we loved her. ( Read more... ) -
the daily.
i am trying to learn to be joyful when im cleaning the toilet, when im wiping the puke from the floor for the fifth time when we are all suffering from that dreaded stomach virus At The Same Time, when a frustrated five year old is in my face telling me exactly what he thinks of a situation, when a three year old wakes the 8 month old Just as she ( Read more... ) -
grace, part 1.
a typical night in our home goes something like this: i leave for work at 430, (not every night, but three of the five weeknights) -- matthew is home with the littles doing dinner, baths, all the fun stuff before bed, and gets them all in bed & asleep by 730 or 8 pm. i get home about 10:45pm, just in time to nurse a waking ruby & she likes to ( Read more... ) -
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life with three little ones seems to be going at warp speed... downtime is a hazy memory & when it comes i usually collapse into sleep for however long i am able. it is a beautiful, crazy, hectic, peaceful, rhythmic, full, abundant life & i am so very thankful for it; even though i stink at motherhood more often than not & lose my patience more ( Read more... ) -
years
i'm pretty certain i'm having some sort of "ohmygoshimturning THIRTY-FIVE inafewmonths" crisis.
i think it's kind of hilarious & sad all at the same time! -
vanity
im either going to let my hair go crazy out of control curly messy or cut it all off again.
