well this sucks.   everytime i try to do anything for my dad (nicelike, you know, him not asking me to do it) well it blows up in my face.  i tried to bushhog the pasture for him for fathers day and i screw up the tractor's steering ability, yea.  then my sister bends the blade on the lawn mower and i felt sorry for her. so then i have to use the ( Read more... )

why am i the problem?   why cant i be the answers, why cant i have the answers needed.

when i cant do anything about it thats when i get the most frustrated.  ohhh  it makes me angry that i dont have the answers.

but its come to my conclution that if there is a dark side ,sadly i would give in

but hey its great to be back from my trip ( Read more... )

yup, i miss her and i'm not doing anything. i wish she would call me.

yup. yup

yup. hey everyone is so cool

yup. dang i dont know what to say

the horizon will always be out of reach

time will always be a concept not controlled

and life will always be something that needs to be cherished

yup not much here.   hide and seek is so cool.  I wish i could play. but any way it sounds like they had fun so thats cool and thanks for inviting me. i had to go to a long, religious, church thing for seniors that kinda scared me,like in a since. its a long story. but it was ok because lesley talked to me, shes cool. she made sure i was not lonely ( Read more... )

I'm an awful person and i know it, it bothers me when people have fun, i wish i can have fun. it feels like i get pushed to the side. i feel like a tag on her , always there but doesnt say anything and mean anything. friends why dont i have them. i'm never told anything unless i have to suck it out of someone or just being there. noone just calles ( Read more... )

this place makes me happy, know matter the mood i'm in.

but when i get home the reality hits me. i miss her. i'm almost done with all my banquets and yet it makes me sad. i'm glad i got to see everyone.

Today was a half good half bad

some loser got the scholarship i tried out for.........THE ATHLETIC BOOSTERS        HOW DID Jacob graves get it over me i dont understand.   oh i'm sorry if i dont have my nose stuck up everyones ass on the board. this pisses me off. what the crape, he does not even have as good as grades as me. i knew peter was going ( Read more... )

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it was brought to my veiw that people think they know me ( Read more... )